kuiz

dengar cerita siapa complaint nanti kena blacklist,
akan di-fail-kan repeatedly.

nama sesuai utk golongan ini ialah?

saiko

mentally exhausted.
emotionally unstable.
sleep-deprived.

not enough.

and yes, i'm mad.
i mean, MAD MAD MAD.
nak cakap, kenapa babi sangat?

sorry for those words.
i'm not in the mood to please anyone.

forensic paper tomorrow.
after 4 days of non-stop exams.
pharmaco paper 1, pharmaco paper 2, microb paper 1, microb paper 2.
done. haha. well done.

boleh terjun bangunan sekarang jugak.
penat. just penat.

hi, saya pelajar sekolah pondok.

1st MBBS Professional Exam,
and this was what happened ;


2nd MBBS Professional Exam coming soon,
and again ;

At least I have a story to share when I become a great doctor one day. InsyaAllah.
Amin! (chorus pls!)

p/s : sini black-out adalah maha dasyat.

nak ckp

ok tarik nafas. yes. ok dah.

ok baru lepas black-out. i've mencarut-ed enough about this black-out thingy so i'm not gonna add up some more here. i've to pretend to be ayu too kan kan.

exam is 1 week away and i'm freaking nervous about itttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay scream with me ppl!!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

i dun want to complaint about the lack of study leave because i've been skipping the classes anyway. tapii, u know, when there's too much to read, and so little time, and when you move from one page to another, u forgot what u've read in the previous pages. that's just - DEPRESSING.

please please please don't tell me i'm the only person yang ade this problem, u know, dah bace pun lupe. if betul lah i'm the only one yg ade this kind of problem, i nak terjun bangunan sekarang jugak.

now i feel like taking out my brain out of the skull, and basuh sental2 sket sebab i think my brain is so kotor and corrupted that's y susah nak ingat. lepas tu rasa nak tambah 100GB to my brain so i can store more and more information. ergh. speaking about mengarut, yes, me.

and apparently, i baru tauuuuu yg our exam will be conducted in the morning!!! okay stupid me sebab tak check betul2 and just assume the exam is gonna be in the evening sbb slalunya mmg they conduct the exam in the evening. and tell u what, i am so gonna have a big problem with this.

because why, i have this one syndrome. my concentration peaks at night and pagi2 buta. so what i did was i study malam2 till morning and i will sleep at around 4am-5am and i will bangun tidur at tengahari. (and that explains why i bengang gile bile tetibe somebody wakes me up tadi kata kena hantar record before 1pm, no, not u ninot, but whoever yg ckp mcm tu) because i assumed my exam starts at 2, so mcm takde hal la if hari exam pon i bangun tengahari. tapiiiiiii.....ok. exam starts at 9am. no kidding ira. kena adjust ur sleeping hours balik. and u know that's the hardest thing for me!!

and i am so malnourished. and i've been spending so much on food lately. sebab malas masak. malas. to me, masak is a big thing. haha. gedik kan. unless u want to masak nasik goreng perencah tu lain cerita la. to me, lepas masak adalah wajib bagi i utk rehat2 sejam 2 sebab penat wakakakka. so i refuse to cook sebab a procrastinator like me needs all the time in the world to catch up with everything. haish menyesal takde adik angkat ke apa ke kat sini if not i can buli them to cook for me. lol, speaking about seniority! HAHAHAHHA terus kene cop kakak gedik nak mampos.

today is supposed to be my forensic day but i havent start studying forensic yet because tadi bz hantar record book siapkan ape yg patut (my bad, so last minute) and lepas tu ade seminar pharmaco lagi. heh. orang2 rajin dah boleh ponteng dah, but orang2 rajin ponteng class dulu2 terpakse datang to make up the attendance. padan muka sendiri. dush dush. eh eh, attendance seminar i takde la teruk sangat pun. but dr, ramesh is so particular about attendance.

actually i've so much to write write write. not writing this kind of craps and luahan hati of course, but so little time lah now. 1 week away from my 3rd internal assessment, and exactly 1 month away from my finals.

and uh oh, half a month away from my birthday! lol. ada paper pathology anyway. just hope it'll be my lucky day! ok lah enough of luahan hati session. ciao for now. daaa.

p/s : if u're reading this, and u're from czech, boleh tak leave me a msg. i may need ur help heee. kalau ada lah.

dream journal

mimpi hantu is so annoying ok.

imagine this,
mimpi tgh jalan malam2,
suddenly somebody call out ur name,
and u pun tercari2 where the voice comes from,
and when u paling ke depan balik,
there's one hantu pakai kain kapan in front of u,
and to make it worse,
when u look at the face,
it's someone u love who lives faraway from u.

cuak tak cuak??!

dengar macam lawak,
dia akan jadi lawak kalau muka hantu tu adalah muka azwan ali ke,
atau muka apek senario ke,
atau muka siti nurhaliza ke,
atau muka shah rukh khan ke,
tapi kalau contohnya muka nenek kau yg masih lagi hidup ke,
tak ke kau boleh heart attack dalam mimpi tu?

like, bila masa nenek aku mati??
kan?
takkan nenek nak main hantu2 kot.

dah la tu,
lepas nampak hantu tu,
sambungan mimpi tu adalah aku terbangun dari mimpi sambil menjerit,
siap nampak muka roommate sedang terpelik tengok aku menjerit bangun dari tido,
lepas tu terus call little dinosour,
mengadu.

and lepas tu,
baru bebetul bangun dari tido.
mimpi dalam mimpi.
annoying tak??!!

and i've been having quite a number of nitemares lately.
and most of the dream seems so real,
because some of the dreams started with me bukak mata baru bangun tidur,
from the exact same position yg i bebetul tidur tu,
and then there's hantu blablabla.

so it looks as if i baru bangun tidur and ternampak hantu,
when the real thing is i was dreaming.

damn,
this is annoying.
and this has got to stop.
NOW.

kritikal

jerawat dekat dahi menggila. tak nak hilang. tepek la apa pun.
tiada lagi kelicinan.
nasib baik rambut ada fringe.
siapa nak hire aku jadi model 'sebelum' iklan ubat jerawat?

tadi msg mummy, "mummy, lapa :("
mummy replied "gi buat cekodok, senang jer" err. malas pls.
i hate not to know what to eat everyday.
hidup akan lebih bermakna jika housemates bergilir2 masak.
unfortunately, nak exam ni, maka we decided to stop the cycle sekejap.
aku yg merana sebab malnutrition.

adalah sangat malang,
sebab mummy tak jadi datang bangalore during my exam week.
member dia dah nak terberanak,
so dia kena standby buat kerja tergendala.

adalah sangat malang jugak,
cuti tak pernah nak sama dengan lil dinosour,
dia cuti aku tengah exam.
dia dah nak habis cuti singgah bangalore sebab nak balik manipal pun aku tengah exam.

adalah lebih malang,
kalau kau semangat nak belajar mengalahkan professor,
tetiba black-out.
nak buat ape dowh black-out?
main hantu-hantu?

let's just pray,
kami tidak malang dalam exam.
amin.

3rd year of MBBS and still struggling.

i shouldn't be blogging at this crucial moment, but i guess a few minutes won't hurt hehe ;p

i am not yet gila, but i am starting to freak out about the upcoming exam, both my 3rd internal assessment examination and my final professional exam.

here's the suckest part of everything ;
- we don't have study leave for 3rd IA at all.
- the gap between 3rd IA and final exam is only 10 days (omg 10 days for study leave for final, bangangkah anda?)
- 2-3 days before 3rd IA, we are expected to come for orthopaedics end-posting test (argh, get lost!)
- not much gap between the subjects seriously! cth : monday pharmac I, tuesday pharmac II, wednesday microb I, thurs microb II, friday forensic. (mcm haram tak??)

eiiii bila list down baru rasa nak mencarut. ape lah bangang bodoh bengap sangat jadual? and what the heck we really do need study leave okay!! uni lain study leave siap sebulan kotttt, kitorang punya study leave haram tkde! fuck!

and what the heck time tu la jugak nak buat end-posting test for orthopaedics?! dahla kalau mmg nak score test ortho u have to revise anatomy gila2 balik. excuse me, abis bila masa aku nak bace patho pharmac microb and forensic for my final ha tahiiii?????????????

and what the fuck exam tkde gap between subjects? kau igt lepas balik jawab paper pharmac aku sampai umah terus nak bukak buku for tomorrow's paper ke? kau pikir kau tak nampak otak tu berpeluh busuk2 semua maknanya otak aku tak penat? ape ke bangang sgt? kau igt tu paper kacang goreng macam jawab upsr ke? kau igt tu paper macam jawab soalan masa dekat BTN ke? ehh, sumpah otak lembu ok sebab tak fikir semua tu.

igt kitorang tanak score ke for final and 3rd IA? tapi kalau jadual sikit punya babi mcm tu, satu haram pun tak supportive, study leave pun ciput, siap ade exam ortho lagi, ape kes dol?!

tak cukup2 stress dengan semua name drugs yg annoying, lepas tu patho nak tau all the minute mechanism blablabla, dengan nak tau satu kerabat bacteria virus cacing2 kulat2 semua, kau nak kasi stress pulak dengan all these things. eiii, i wish i have a single word yg boleh describe kebangangan kebodohan kebabian ahh those words are just not enough because argh. ok sabar ira.

i need all the strength and all the hard work and all the prayers in the world. this is very important to me and my friends. please let me pass all the 4 subjects because i swear i want to serve you ppl as a doctor.

cewah, but really. i do love medicine but sometimes i just can't handle the burden. orang lain belajar medic ada je cuti sampai 2-3 bulan, kitorang? haram. setahun cuti 6 minggu. mcm cilaks kan? and my everyday still saling tak tumpah mcm zaman sekolah. class starts at 830am, then finishes at 430pm. unlike orang lain, hari ni ada class, tomorrow takde, lusa takde, ah heaven ok.

so btw, now i tgh posting orthopaedics. anything and everything related to bones. well, not really into it, or maybe not yet? and bila masuk OT, pergh, sumpah tak tipu, terus reject ortho, i won't specialize in ortho, ape lagi nak jadi surgeon. penat nak mati. dahla kena pakai the mask all the time to maintain absolute aseptic condition. with my history of low blood pressure etc etc, sumpah boleh buat drama student pengsan dlm OT. keluar OT terus janji dekat diri sendiri, kau tak payah nak gedik2 jadi surgeon.

yeah, my mom pon tak advise jadi surgeon. ahh mmg tak ah. i still stick of O&G, orrrr, mcm nak medicine tapi argghhh takyah la i think medicine is too much. by that time i want to concentrate on my family blablabla ceh konon but seriously wehhhh, adakah aku akan belajar and stay nerdy sampai tua??? no wayyyy! arrgghhh Nadd, i know u feel me!!! (ni lagi sorang, a straight A's student who wanted to do fashion but stucked with medicine! she said her parents boleh pengsan kalau dengar dia nak buat fashion with that result -_-")

okay, this is not a FEW minutes. i've taken much of my studying time (ceh konon, padahal lepas ni check FB la twitter la blog orang lain la argh) so okay, i will try my best to remain away from this blogging thingy so that i can focus more on the upcoming exam. okay, these 2 are pictures of me and my classmates time nak masuk OT for orthopaedic case.

please don't expect me to become a surgeon even after seeing these pics of me pakai baju OT wahahaha. no way dol. but i would love to marry a surgeon hehe let's see if little dinosour wants to be a surgeon! so, do expect me to be a obstetrician/gynaecologist okay? prayers are much appreciated :D

okay, tadi marah2 now dah okay sket kan. tapi kalau igt balik msti nak marah balik. but unfortunately, we students can't do much. that person who promised to help pon hanya promise je. ah, dah biasa dengar orang ckp lebat konon hebat tapi semuanya just for his/her advantage, students jugak yang terkapai2. so, aku takkan termakan kata2 kau lagi ok? ehh, kan dah emo balik! ok, i'm signing off, NOW!

p/s : omg wait, the baju is far too big for my size hahahaha. but i think that was the smallest i cud find. lol. who cares anyway?

p/s : okay now rasa bersalah for swearing so much in this post. so tak sopan kan. LOL. but, tak nak delete. sebab, i really do think, someone, somewhere, deserves those words for making our life as students miserable. -_-"