3rd year of MBBS and still struggling.

i shouldn't be blogging at this crucial moment, but i guess a few minutes won't hurt hehe ;p

i am not yet gila, but i am starting to freak out about the upcoming exam, both my 3rd internal assessment examination and my final professional exam.

here's the suckest part of everything ;
- we don't have study leave for 3rd IA at all.
- the gap between 3rd IA and final exam is only 10 days (omg 10 days for study leave for final, bangangkah anda?)
- 2-3 days before 3rd IA, we are expected to come for orthopaedics end-posting test (argh, get lost!)
- not much gap between the subjects seriously! cth : monday pharmac I, tuesday pharmac II, wednesday microb I, thurs microb II, friday forensic. (mcm haram tak??)

eiiii bila list down baru rasa nak mencarut. ape lah bangang bodoh bengap sangat jadual? and what the heck we really do need study leave okay!! uni lain study leave siap sebulan kotttt, kitorang punya study leave haram tkde! fuck!

and what the heck time tu la jugak nak buat end-posting test for orthopaedics?! dahla kalau mmg nak score test ortho u have to revise anatomy gila2 balik. excuse me, abis bila masa aku nak bace patho pharmac microb and forensic for my final ha tahiiii?????????????

and what the fuck exam tkde gap between subjects? kau igt lepas balik jawab paper pharmac aku sampai umah terus nak bukak buku for tomorrow's paper ke? kau pikir kau tak nampak otak tu berpeluh busuk2 semua maknanya otak aku tak penat? ape ke bangang sgt? kau igt tu paper kacang goreng macam jawab upsr ke? kau igt tu paper macam jawab soalan masa dekat BTN ke? ehh, sumpah otak lembu ok sebab tak fikir semua tu.

igt kitorang tanak score ke for final and 3rd IA? tapi kalau jadual sikit punya babi mcm tu, satu haram pun tak supportive, study leave pun ciput, siap ade exam ortho lagi, ape kes dol?!

tak cukup2 stress dengan semua name drugs yg annoying, lepas tu patho nak tau all the minute mechanism blablabla, dengan nak tau satu kerabat bacteria virus cacing2 kulat2 semua, kau nak kasi stress pulak dengan all these things. eiii, i wish i have a single word yg boleh describe kebangangan kebodohan kebabian ahh those words are just not enough because argh. ok sabar ira.

i need all the strength and all the hard work and all the prayers in the world. this is very important to me and my friends. please let me pass all the 4 subjects because i swear i want to serve you ppl as a doctor.

cewah, but really. i do love medicine but sometimes i just can't handle the burden. orang lain belajar medic ada je cuti sampai 2-3 bulan, kitorang? haram. setahun cuti 6 minggu. mcm cilaks kan? and my everyday still saling tak tumpah mcm zaman sekolah. class starts at 830am, then finishes at 430pm. unlike orang lain, hari ni ada class, tomorrow takde, lusa takde, ah heaven ok.

so btw, now i tgh posting orthopaedics. anything and everything related to bones. well, not really into it, or maybe not yet? and bila masuk OT, pergh, sumpah tak tipu, terus reject ortho, i won't specialize in ortho, ape lagi nak jadi surgeon. penat nak mati. dahla kena pakai the mask all the time to maintain absolute aseptic condition. with my history of low blood pressure etc etc, sumpah boleh buat drama student pengsan dlm OT. keluar OT terus janji dekat diri sendiri, kau tak payah nak gedik2 jadi surgeon.

yeah, my mom pon tak advise jadi surgeon. ahh mmg tak ah. i still stick of O&G, orrrr, mcm nak medicine tapi argghhh takyah la i think medicine is too much. by that time i want to concentrate on my family blablabla ceh konon but seriously wehhhh, adakah aku akan belajar and stay nerdy sampai tua??? no wayyyy! arrgghhh Nadd, i know u feel me!!! (ni lagi sorang, a straight A's student who wanted to do fashion but stucked with medicine! she said her parents boleh pengsan kalau dengar dia nak buat fashion with that result -_-")

okay, this is not a FEW minutes. i've taken much of my studying time (ceh konon, padahal lepas ni check FB la twitter la blog orang lain la argh) so okay, i will try my best to remain away from this blogging thingy so that i can focus more on the upcoming exam. okay, these 2 are pictures of me and my classmates time nak masuk OT for orthopaedic case.

please don't expect me to become a surgeon even after seeing these pics of me pakai baju OT wahahaha. no way dol. but i would love to marry a surgeon hehe let's see if little dinosour wants to be a surgeon! so, do expect me to be a obstetrician/gynaecologist okay? prayers are much appreciated :D

okay, tadi marah2 now dah okay sket kan. tapi kalau igt balik msti nak marah balik. but unfortunately, we students can't do much. that person who promised to help pon hanya promise je. ah, dah biasa dengar orang ckp lebat konon hebat tapi semuanya just for his/her advantage, students jugak yang terkapai2. so, aku takkan termakan kata2 kau lagi ok? ehh, kan dah emo balik! ok, i'm signing off, NOW!

p/s : omg wait, the baju is far too big for my size hahahaha. but i think that was the smallest i cud find. lol. who cares anyway?

p/s : okay now rasa bersalah for swearing so much in this post. so tak sopan kan. LOL. but, tak nak delete. sebab, i really do think, someone, somewhere, deserves those words for making our life as students miserable. -_-"