Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Meroyan

buruk betul perkataan meroyan ni. very synonymous to makcik tua terpekik terlolong satu kampung sebab baru mati laki. tak ke?

anyway, please jangan samakan meroyan dengan makcik tua dah. sebab in this modern world, kami yang muda remaja ni pun dah pandai meroyan sebab tekanan perasaan with local indian drivers. it's a whole different experience.

to those who don't know, yes i'm currently studying in india and i bought kereta cap murah with my friends untuk mempermudahkan urusan kitorang pergi and pulang menuntut ilmu selain daripada pergi berfoya2 bersuka ria di hari minggu. so yeah.

kalau kat msia, boleh kira berapa orang pakai kereta manual. tapi dekat india, boleh kira dengan jari seblah tangan je berapa orang pakai kereta automatic. pendek citer, diorang ni memang pemandu yang hebat sebab mostly memang pakai kereta manual. i wanted to buy an automatic car but it was so damn expensive and a papa kedana like me can't afford an auto car hence the manual car i'm using now.

honestly, i was very much used to auto car back in msia, seingat i, aku bawak kereta manual masa nak amek driving license and kadang2 when aku rembat kereta kancil my sis dulu2. tapi tu semua cerita klasik suatu masa dulu, sekarang kat rumah aku semua kereta auto saje.

so anyway, berbekalkan hati kental dan kering, aku determined nak beli je kereta manual cap murah ni. janji boleh jalan, biar la mati 10 kali pun. first time bawak kereta dekat india nie, perrrrgggghhhh, cuak tak terkata mulut kering sebab cuak okay, dah la berkurun lamenye aku tak bawak kereta manual. kene pulak first day aku bawak kereta to class, i was stucked in between big lorries, not to mention manusia india yang suka jalan tengah2 alam plus kereta2 and motor2 anddd auto a.k.a tut-tut tu lagi. semak ah traffic india ni.

kalau dekat malaysia, kite cuak sebab kereta semua laju2. dekat india ni, kau cuak sebab kereta datang dari semua arah, manusia jalan dengan bahagianya dekat tengah2 jalan sikit pun tak cuak lori nak lalu (lori pulak terpaksa cuak terlanggar diorang) and diorang ni semua memang kurang ajar tahap moksya.

awal2 bawak kereta dekat sini, memang aku sikit punye hati2 tak nak terlanggar orang. kalau hon diorang tak ketepi pun aku sanggup bersabar bawak gear rendah membontoti bontot2 manusia yg jalan tengah jalan ni. sekarang, memang aku tempted je nak langgar sekor2 manusia bengap ni. ha, disinilah bermulanya era meroyan aku dan kawan2 sekereta aku.

sini kalau nk hon takde maknenye nak hon pendek2 malu2, kau hon je sampai 5 minit stret, tu pun belum tentu orang nak ketepi bagi jalan kat kau. dia boleh selamba lagi jalan gelak2. macam celaka ok. kalau hon 5 minit tak dilayan, bukak tingkap plak. kalau ada batu dalam kereta aku, dh lame aku baling kat manusia2 ni, tapi sadly aku asik terlupe jek nk kumpul batu2 letak dlm kereta so aku just jerit "woiiiii ammmaaaa, tepi la bodooo! kau bangang ke ape!" ahahahaha okay nak meroyan dalam bahasa india aku tak berapa nak fasih, nak meroyan dalam english bukan diorang paham pun so buang karan je kau meroyan berhabuk2 in english, might as well meroyan dalam mother tongue sendiri. puas hati ok.

proses meroyan takkan lengkap tanpa ekspresi muka dan tangan. korang pernah tengok kan kalau dekat cerita tamil tu perempuan gaduh2 diorang suka pakai tangan kan. ha macam tu lah kitorang buat. i lost count dah berapa kali aku flash my middle finger to the indian drivers and the stupid pedestrians. i never did that in malaysia. (shit, betul ke?) but anyway, kalau nak flash middle finger kat msia time driving pun memang fikir 2-3 kali gak kan. kat sini tak payah fikir, buat saje.

dekat india ni, there's no such thing as fast lane or slow lane. kalau kau bawak auto 40km/hour pun kau boleh belasah bawak on fast lane. ape ade hal. bawak kereta dekat india ni macam main game ok. kalau nak cepat, memang kau terpaksa cilok2 semua lane. daripada lane laju, tetibe ada auto (tut tut) slow block kau, masuk plak lane tengah, tak lame lepas tu ade plak lori lembab kat lane tengah, masuk lane slow pulak tak lame lepas tu ade plak pakcik tengah tolak troli jual sayur. and lepas tu back to middle lane depan kau semua ada kereta slow lembap lempong daripada fast lane, middle lane and slow lane. so there's nothing u can do but wait. or hon sampai lebam. can u imagine? so pendek kata, kau hanya akan berpeluang untuk speeding dalam masa kurang daripada 2 minit sebelum berjumpa dengan halangan seterusnya. gila tak masyuk. tapi kalau kau jenis suka cilok2 lane tu best la gak tapi bila part stuck sbb semua kereta dpn kau slow tu memang turn off. and yes, sini kau bukan racing dengan kereta. kau racing dengan lori2 besar. sumpah ok.

speaking about lori2 besar, diorang ni memang biadap tau. kadang2 tu main himpit je masuk lane orang smpai nk terlanggar our car. eee macam babi la jugak. if that happens selalunya aku kejar balik lori tu, dapat jerit meroyan jap or flash middle finger pun jadi lah. orang bodoh mcm ni memang kene ajar sikit. pernah tu siap balas2 gaduh mulut sambil bawak kereta side to side with another vehicle tu. hahah macam haram. aku ni dah macam gangster jalanan dah.

kereta cap murah aku memang sangat berjasa. paling malas nak bangun awal catch the bus to class, lagi malas kalau tertinggal bas pastu terpaksa gaduh ngan pakcik auto sebab dia mintak fare mahal. ade kereta ni tenang sket. eh? tenang? tapi meroyan?

now i can drive a manual car like a pro already. ahahaha. siap dah ajar 4 orang yang naik kereta sama aku. initially, i was the only person who can drive, so hari2 aku mengangkut my other 4 classmates to class. lepas tu aku dah macam instructor, sorang2 aku ajar bawak kereta, now all of 'em can drive a manual car already. hah. aahh, and that explains the condition of the car. each kemek represents almost each one of em. hahahaha. takpe, at least kemek jek. plus the traffic memang unpredictable kan. i've been in worse car accident with a lorry in malaysia. kereta remuk, lori terbalik sideways, settle dekat balai. haa. hahahah. guess every driver will experience at least an accident in a lifetime.

serious tak ayu okay kalau meroyan. tapi meroyan tu macam kewajipan atau tuntutan kalau kau nak terus hidup dekat india ni. tak tahan aa hari2 kereta cap murah aku ditindas oleh lori2 besar. cap murah tak murah, name kereta aku ferrari okay. adios amigos.

me and my ferrari

Friday, January 21, 2011

i wanna believe in forever



love is a strong feeling. love is magic. love is the most wonderful feeling in the world. love can kill you and then bring you back to life. love is crazy. love is a bitch. love turns you upside down.

i first knew what love really is at a very tender age. messed up with love. died because of love, but i was brought back to life because of love. i’ve lost so much because of love. and i’m so scared of anymore loss that i have to face later in life.

i gave up because of love. i fear to love again. but then again, love gives me the courage to take the risk and to not give up. love confuses me, but at the same time, love takes charge of my decision.

love is not found, love is built. you’ll never know if the person you’re meeting for the first time is the love of your life. i wonder if i can choose to fall in love. truth is, i can’t. you can’t choose to fall in love or to not fall in love. you just fall. you can’t even choose to stop being in love. love will find you.

you don’t always fall in love with the prince charming or a beauty queen. love doesn’t know perfection. you can still find love in the middle of imperfections. funny how we set standards and qualification of our mr/miss right, but at the back of our mind, the person we truly love will always be an exception.

i believed in love. but love betrayed me. but in the end, i keep believing. i got myself heartbroken, and i refused to believe that someday, someone will prove me that love is not all that bad. but then again, with this fragile heart of mine, i keep believing.

if love is a game, play it right. why cheat on love game? why do people try so hard to win the love game only to eventually forget the pleasure and victory after winning? love is something to be cherished forever. forever doesn’t mean a year, not 2 years, not even 10 years. forever means forever even after the day you die.

if i am to be in love again, i really wish it is forever. i’m sick of another heartbreak, sick of another teary moment, sick of lies, sick of trying hard only to fall on my face again, sick of getting sick with hopeless relationship, just sick. but i’m scared of getting my hope goes up high. traumatized much.

i swear i can write longer but nah. i don’t know why i’m feeling what i feel now. i wrote this, and feel this while listening to i’m in here by sia. damn, i am so easily affected by sappy songs. and i think, part of this is because of the hormones. blame pms. insecurity and emotional instability always get the best of me during this time.

p/s : untuk effect lebih mendalam lagi mencengkam ketika membaca, read while listening to i’m in here by sia.

Friday, January 14, 2011

We love Justin Bieber like seriouslyyyy!



I'm soooooo sorry for the very long silence! It's been more than a month since I last posted an entry in this blog. Been busy with lots of things teeeheeee.

Haaa, that video! Lol. Me and my beloved girlfriends were doing some miming of Justin Bieber's baby baby baby ohhhh song teehee. Please don't bother to mention how gedik we were coz we're fully aware of that but who the heck cares, we had fun and we don't bitch about other ppl so yeah.

I promise to continue writing in this blog. Hehe mintak2 la banyak free time nak tulis entry banyak2 macam dulu lagi. Later lovesss <3