wealth

some people are so poor, all they have is money.

i'd rather live a life full with love and affection.

that's my definition of wealth.

the businesswoman in me :P

hello girls!! so it's saturday, have you been productive on saturday? me, definitely YES!!! :p i went out for saree hunting to send the next batch of sarees for sale :)

i went out alone, bought 20 sarees altogether, carried 'em all on my own, ahhh right that moment i sangat la memerlukan my lover boy, if he's around takde la i sakit pinggang sakit bahu sakit tangan mengangkut all the 20 sarees ahahaha dahla i stayed up till 7pm coz i forced the shopkeeper to call up his tailor and fix the saree that i bought coz some beads fell off from the saree! i insisted to fix it right away because my friend really want that saree and i can't possibly sell a saree with defect :/ my customer's satisfaction is very important meh!

i've yet to open my sarees for booking but i did show some of 'em to some friends and cousins and alhamdulillah, hanya lepas beberapa jam i shopped, 5 sarees are already booked :)) thank you thank you thank you! 15 sarees are still available, and if you're looking forward to see the sarees before i officially upload it on my facebook for booking, do PM me on facebook okay! :) i have silk, chiffon, crepe and georgette sarees available in stock! here's the sneak preview! :P

my personal fav would be the third one in grey! i think the color itself is so elegant and rare :) it's still available with good price! so what are you waiting for? PM i cepat okay! wakakakakkaa. i know i sangat annoying when promoting my items trololololol! tapi that's me dealing with my business, harus la annoying promote bagai nak rak, baru la boleh hidup dalam dunia perniagaan. ewah wah wah!

i'm actually doing this with my boyfriend, kire i macam pemborong, dia plak pengedar wahahahha roughly, that's how it works, i go buy all the sarees, pick the best sarees in town, post it to him, he'll deal with all the payment and postage. pemodal? mestila bukan i ekekekeke. pemodal adalah sugardaddy i uollzzz! sugardaddy aka pengedar saree kesayangan i!

memula dia bukan main segan nk promote sarees, nak hide dari budak bangalore la ape lah, i said "tak payah la hide ke apeee, buat je public, reshare ur album byk kali, buat ayat promote kaw2, u kene la muke tebal sket if nk jual saree" wakakakakakaka. annoying to the maxxxx!!! laki jual saree, mesti la segan jugak kan, i ape kesah, i mmg muke tebal pun lalalala~~

when i think of it, sebnanye i dah berkecimpung (ewah berkecimpung) dalam bidang perniagaan (hahahah tetibe rasa ayat ni poyo, macam aku berniaga besar-besaran plak!!!) since sekolah rendah!!! i've been selling lots of things and i pun taktau la kenape dari i sekolah2 rendah lagi i dah ade initiative untuk earn my own money. my parents never taught me that tau, i sendiri je pandai2 jual itu la ini la and when i get the profit (though sen2 je), i happy gile kot!!

i started menjual2 masa i darjah 2. ini memang macam bangang sket la, ampunkan la budak darjah 2 ni ek pls. time tu, i bole la dikatakan creative, tulisan cantik and pandai mewarna. tau i jual ape? i amek pesan budak2 kelas suruh i tuliskan name diorang cantik2 and kaler cantik2 and gunting so that they can tampal their name somewhere. gunting pastu tampal la sendiri pakai gam diorang, bukannye sticker or anything. itu pun business bole jalan okay. wakakakakakakak. i am probably the one and only person yg pnah buat business sebangang tu trolololololol!!!! the best part is, bebudak kelas ramai jek pesan and pay me for my artwork!! hahahahahahahahaha thanks la korang2, kecik2 dh bagi semangat and motivasi utk i terus menceburi bidang perniagaan wakakakakakaka.

next, darjah 3 plak. time ni i jual stickers! hihiks. time tu hobi i bole la dikatekan mengumpul stickers. i had few sticker books and i sell stickers. depends la, yg kecik ade 30 sen, besar 50 sen, yang timbul2 or kilat2 tu singgit. hah, kaye jgk tau jual stickers.

at the same time, i jual gambar artis. bukan artis melayu, artis mat salleh uollzzzz. ni kak long i yg introduce. memang gmbar yg dicuci betul dari kedai gmbar tu yg i jual. as far as i remember, satu gambar ade la dalam singgit kot. i byk jual gambar backstreetboys, spice girls, boyzone, 911, haaa, sek2 tu lah. laku wei lakuuuuu!

lepas tu if you guys remember, dulu time kecik2 semua bebudak nak ade card name tu. yg ade tulis name, address, contact number, lepas tu dekat atas ade ucapan, and bole la pilih nak gmbar ape dkt card tu. actually tu mcm deal with a company jugak, kire i cam dealer la something like that, i kumpul dalam 10 orang yg nak, semua byr kat i, and i get a few sets of free name card. rasenyelah that's how it works. pon laku weiiiii.

ape lagi ape lagiii? i penah jual batu seremban kot!!!! bukan stakat jual, i buat batu seremban tu jahit sendiri!!! hah, gigih tak gigih!! if im not mistaken, i siap bole jahit batu seremban yg 3 segi tu kot. wakakakaakkaka when i think about it again, agak kagum la dgn diri sendiri. nak cari duit punye pasal, jahit batu seremban sendiri, jual! beres! pon laku!

ni semua i jual masa sekolah rendah. masuk secondary school plak i dah stop la jual bende2 mengarut ni wahahahaha. tapi bile i broke, i jual baju2 yg i dh taknak. just so you know, i sekolah dekat smks9 shah alam, mostly budak skolah ni memang kaya2, bile i broke, i suruh adik i promote baju2 i yg i dh taknak, i remember selling elle sweater, esprit jeans and few others to kawan2 adik i yg kaye raye ni dengan harga yg still mahal muahahahaha. omg jahatnye i!!! dah diorg mmg kaye, they didn't even question me why harga macam tu! so, jual je lah. hahahahahaha. ampunkan i pls!

hah, lagi satu masa secondary school, i think masa form 1 form 2 kot, i used to sell burn cds. people will give me a list of songs that they want, i'll burn the cd for them. satu cd tu i jual dalam rm10 kot. hihi. not bad jugak! :P

i think that's all kot. hihi. u guys ade buat and jual bende2 ngarut cmni tak time kecik2? i pun tktau ape motif i menjual2 sangat time sekolah rendah tu. nak kata tkde duit, dpt je duit belanja, makanan kat kantin bukan mahal pun, pastu bukannye i bershopping ke ape time tu. hahaha serious tak paham ok. tu mcm unconscious mind. tak sedar pun sebenarnye tgh make money. lolol.

mase sekolah menengah tu yes, i memang menjual2 sebab i needed money. time ni i dh pandai bershopping2 sendiri, keluar jalan and all and i only get rm10 per week. how to survive mannn! (but i survived) so yeah, apart from puasa cam nak gile, i will jual my 2ndhand stuffs and jual burn cds to get money. my parents, they don't pamper us with money. diorang ckp, we'll give you what you need, the rest of the things that u want, which includes barang2 branded semua, kalau nak, beli sendiri. so yeah.

but it was fun, doing all that, it makes me smile ear to ear now :) ahahahahaha. now i know, the businesswoman in me has always been there inside me, since i was a little girl! keep it going!!! :P

so, i end this post with this.

ahlan wa sahlan! (eh?)

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

anyone of you still keep a diary? i mean, diary that is really written by hand, the one that you pour your heart out, the one with little pad lock so even your mom can't have access to your inner thoughts? damn, i don't write such diary anymore. the last time i kept a diary was when i was in kms and damn, i lost it -____-" nasib la siapa yang jumpe and get to read all my ugly thoughts :/

i can't possibly treat my blog as a personal diary. it feels so wrong to share my overflowing thoughts with the public though sometimes i am soooo tempted to write it out. it's not about having people reading it that matters, it's about the satisfaction you get after you write it out. it's like, you got the burden off your chest, it's like a relief, though not totally.

i actually wish to still keep a real diary, but with my current status as medical student, a handwritten diary is probably not the best way for me to share my thoughts. you know, when you keep a diary, you want it to be neat and tidy, with beautiful handwriting and probably a scented diary with some stickers or something like dat (omg i sure have little kid stucked in me still!!) tapi handwriting i skrg amat la hodoh mcm doctor2 gittewwww, nak tulis panjang2 plak, mmg tak la aku nak tulis cantik2, so long dear diary, i can't afford having you updated every now and then, my days with you dear diary, is long gone!

i used to keep diaries, a lot!! i used to share diary with my childhood besties!! hahahaha i used to have one with hana maisurah and dalila! both are my best friend when i was in primary school. i was close to hana when i was in standard 6 i think, and i was close to dalila when i was in standard 4. oh maiii rindunye!!! how my friendship started between me and hana was a really funny one, we started off as enemies!! hahahah it's a long story, i sure spare a post especially dedicated to my friendship with her haha :P

me with hana maisurah

me with dalila rahim

dalila is married btw! :P can't make it to her wedding coz i'm stucked here in india, sedih tau! btw back to diary business! i had our own little diary with dalila when we were in standard 4. we had secret codes!!! means to say, we don't write it out in the normal alphabets ABC tu semua, we had secret code for A, secret code for B, C and so on. so yeah, we wrote using the secret codes!! and for a moment or so, i was actually really fluent writing things out using our secret codes! tak payah nak refer2 which is A, which is B hahahaha. we mostly talk about boys!!! gelenya deh!!! we used to write about the boys we like in school, why we like them and events where our crush actually talked to us! hahahaha so gedik ok as budak sekolah! i used to list down my criteria of dream boy wakakakakakakak. DARJAH 4 WOI, pandai plak aku nk tulis2 pasal dream boy bagai.

we took turns writing out in our diary. i really can't remember writing about anything else other than boys :/ hahahahah and i taktau la mane pegi diary tu sekarang. is it still at my home or is it with her or adakah telah dihapuskan, i have no idea. dalila is my closest ever friend when i was in standard 4 hihi. lots of crazy experience with her as little girl :) i'll write about it when i have the time.

as for hana, i got close to her soon after she left for perak. she kept coming back to shah alam and slept over at my house and it turns out, her mom was my mom's junior in STF (Sekolah Tun Fatimah), what a small world!!! anyway, yeah, we used to write in the same diary. hahaha ala i tk ingat pulak the things we wrote. but this is one thing that makes us smile panjang when hanging out with each other now, the fact that we shared diary and wrote about silly things. hihi. some memories are the best that they can never be replaced :)

anyway, apart from sharing diaries with these 2 friends of mine, i had lots of other diaries on my own. when i was in lower form i used to have a diary jugak and ampunkan la i sebab diary i semua asik tulis pasal the guys i like in school jek, kenapa la kecik2 dah gatal ek? hahahaha and guess what happened the diary!! one day i was searching for my diary and i could not find it, lepas tuuuuuu, i saw my diary in my mom's room!!!! OMG OMG OMGOMGOMGOGMOGMG so dead ok my mom baca pasal my rantings pasal lelaki!!! tak ke bole pengsan mak aku time baca anak dia tulis pasal laki tu laki ni. omagasshhh. lepas tu i diam je tak cakap pape, i never mention about diary to her and my mom pun sama. but i knew she read it. ergghh. biarlah. lupakan. lupakan. hahaha.

now, i rase i really need a diary. i dunno why but lately i'm having major difficulty to express what i feel to other people. it's like, really major! but i know if i decided to keep a diary now, it won't last long. plus if i have a diary now, it won't be about boys anymore, it's gonna be more about life, about growing up, about what i feel about people surrounding me, about how people treat me and what i feel about it, u know, things like that. no more about boys or lelaki idaman. wahahaha. i hope i already found one lah :P

hah. i lost words kejap. see, i'm not normally like this! is this some kind of degenerative disorder?? coz i really have major difficulty in expressing my feelings now, it's like everything is haywire. i badly need to pour this out into a diary, as for the time being, P is like my partially my diary, whenever i rase down, i'll write to him. but i dunno how long this will last. hihi

so what do u think, should i get myself a diary? :)

cranky little me

it's 10 minutes past 1 in the morning and i've been tossing and turning in my bed for more than 1 hour already, still i couldn't sleep. this sucks.

been thinking about a lot of things. gosh, bed time is the best time to reflect and think, and before you know it, you lost hours of ur beauty sleep already :/ hahaha and somehow, the one thing that was on my mind right before i decided to turn on my laptop and blog at this moment was, me being a fairly hot-tempered person. lol. i know i know. this is so random.

i can get really cranky sometimes. omg. close friends of mine know how hot-tempered i can be when things go wrong and when people mess with me. it's horrible, yes. but one thing that i don't understand is, everytime i do try to be patient, people test my patience even more. is this some kind of game? :/

i believe i WAS once calm and patient, i was that person who can still smile and shut up when people treat me at its worst, i was the kind of person who will repeatedly tell myself that 'it's okay, he won't do it again'. i WAS that person. however, despite my good faith that things will turn out fine and good if i keep being patient, i always end up disappointed.

people really pijak kepala u know. u sabar sabar sabar, believe believe believe, but other ppl keep doing shitty things on you, it sucks okay. in the end, my belief that being patient is the best policy was tarnished. i started becoming a really hot-tempered person.

living in this corrupted country, i became even more hot-tempered. i have low tolerance to bullshit. i can be really rude sometimes that i let my anger gets the best of me. omg. it's horrible. really. imagine a petite (eh?) girl mengamuk beria tepi jalan, how do you find it? horrible sight? hahah probably it is.

the last time i got really lost in rage was with a traffic police. i was on my way home from the hospital, tired and sleepy while driving and suddenly this traffic police blocked my way and asked me to pull over the car to the side. yeah, shit happened.

he wanted to fine me for not wearing seat belt. funny thing was, while fining me and lecturing me about not wearing seat belt while driving, lots of other drivers passed us by, WITHOUT WEARING SEAT BELT. tkde pulak dia nak tahan. hah, my blood was mendidih like crazy waiting to burst je lah. i argued and started yelling and everything, yes, to that traffic police. but he was persistent, he issued a fine statement and gave it to me. what i did? i tore it apart and left for my car. in front of him.

he was yelling at me but i didn't bother, i went to my car and continue marah2 ahaha. sebab i was so penat and sleepy and i actually waited for a friend sebab nak save naik kereta together sekali i kena saman sebab tak pakai seat belt tapi driver kereta lain bole plak berjimba2 tak pakai seat belt diorang tak tahan plak? memang i panas ah.

and he came over, issued another fine statement (gigih ok pakcik ni) and asked for my signature and money! haha babi betul. i took the fine statement, instead of signing on it, i made a big quick scribble on it and throw it on him. he yelled, i took out my money and gave it to him. i masuk kereta cepat2 and drove off quickly. yelah, dalam pada i mengamuk like that, i cuak jugak the police naik angin and bunuh i. wakakakaka.

see how hot-tempered i can be. that's just one of many events.

tapi i tak pernah la buat perangai mcm tu to my friends ahahaa. if i get mad with my friends, i will marah time tu but i will forget the next day. not the kind of person who keeps it for a very long time. to me, if i'm mad about something, i'll burst and get cranky about it, and once it is settled, i'm all good with that person again. sometimes, i'll be the one who says sorry for getting mad and tell the other person that i'm cool about it already.

BUTTTT, i really cannot tolerate people who dunno how to say sorry. omg it's annoying!!! if you think you owe me an apology, do it, apologize!! it doesn't make a person small by saying sorry! it makes the world a better place. i tak faham, some people are so egoistic they never wanna say sorry, it's killing me, and it's killing the friendship/relationship! if i can say sorry, why can't you? if i can admit my mistakes, why can't you? really. can't tolerate this.

eh, i get all cranky again thinking about people who refuse to say sorry. urgh. 1 or 2 times maybe i can just telan and forget bout it, eventually people get tired you know. not getting an apology that i should, i'll get bitter one day.

i honestly hope that when i try my best level to co-operate and be patient and try to deal with some minor bullshit, don't test my patience even more. i can try to be patient, but i need some support too. you can't expect me to be patient at the same time giving me more headaches and bullshit to deal with right?

so yeah. let's make the world a better place.

in my mind

12.40 AM, disco ball is currently spinning above my head (no i'm not in the club or something, i'm in my room :P) but i am not at all tripping over it. currently feeling a bit lonely hihiks.

hello boys, lonely girl is here :P gahahahaha.

as much as i wish to still have someone (in this case, a guy) to keep me company, i don't think i wanna risk screwing up what i already have just for temporary pleasure.

and yes, this is me being all grown-up, talking :)

<3 from thousands of miles away.

wall of art HAHA.

by my PePe Le PewPew! :P

bits and pieces of memories in India :)

just a little update about our sports day and food festival in India :)) not Indian food festival, the food was mostly Malaysian food weeehoooo good thing about living abroad is daripada zero tak reti masak at all, sek2 yang tak reti duduk dapur tu, confirm kau terer masak bile dah duduk jauh sebab you just can't stand eating local Indian food everyday it makes you wanna puke!!! imagine la hari2 makan masala dosa, pstu poori, pstu masala dosa again, errghh rasa berdosa dengan perut okay sebab asik sumbat dgn makanan india. so, nak tak nak, tetibe terterer masak plak. haaa, i'm talking bout myself la ni. caye tak caye tak?

okay the major event was sports day but why am i talking more about food that sports? typical ira who loves to eat which is worrying but i don't wanna add more wrinkles to my face worrying bout my eating habit just yet (okay la nanti i jage makan, promise!) so let's talk about my sports day pulak!

i love sports day coz it's the time when we can actually get together and forget the books and hatred (eh?) and just get together and support each other hihi. i sebenarnya adalah orang yang suka any kind of get-together event :) i hate just staying at home wondering what to do what to do, just not that kind of person. hahaha.

so anyway, i was rooting for futsal match coz few good friends were playing for our team hihiks so yeah, we made it to final match and got 2nd place :) good enough i guess considering the lack of practice ahahaha :P andddd, we bolot 1st place for basketball for guys and tarik tali for guys :D the girls mostly got 1st runner up :) okay la what, last time the girls mostly bolot the first place hihiks this year maybe no luck :))

oh btw, we came to support this girl!! introducing, ninot!! mase tengah dok main2 dalam padang pun bole sebok interact with supporters yg sakat2 dia! hahah such a baby, tapi main futsal! and the 2nd picture is picture of me and close friends here. except for ninot, the rest hanya datang to support and makan :P orang lain shed some lemak during sports day, we add some more lemak into our system hahahahaa. very bad!!!

walaupun i tak main pape, tapi i sunburn gak sebab i penyokong tegar walaupun i sorak sorang2 -____-" i suke cheer ramai2 well, that's the fun part of being cheerleader kan!! :D paling suke cheerleading in school, the best ever! suara dari ayu2 terus jadi garau. nak sokong punye pasal. hahahaha.

and the best part about sports day jugak is everyone can get to cuci mata (i tkleh tulis 'i can get to cuci mata' sat g i kene pelangkung ngan boyfriend hahaha) hahhh. my shades serve a big purpose coz it was so dark and usha-ing was easy lol so what happened was, sekejap bazilah zain pinjam, kejap si nadia pinjam, time tu tujuan pakai shades bukan sebab panas pun, sebab mengusha. ewah kakak2 ni, padahal yang ada semua pangkat adik2. lol.

di sini jugak kita boleh lihat perkembangan badan seseorang. budak tu dah kurus, budak ni dh slim, budak yang tengah tulis ni, same jek wahahahaha. ade peer pressure susah, tkde peer pressure pun susah, i serahkan pada takdir je lah. nak kurus tu rezeki, taknak kurus pun rezeki jugak, nak buat camane lagi dah. i redha hihiks (ciri2 orang malas bersukan!)

i memang malas bersukan!! tapi i regret jgk i actually stopped playing sports bile masuk upper form dulu. mase sekolah rendah and lower form, please la percaya walaupun dgn keadaan i sekarang ni i know semua orang takkan percaya, but please la percaya, i active gile sukan kot!!!! hahahahahah

sekolah rendah i used to jadi wakil lompat jauh and lumba lari ade la sket2, and i played netball and bola baling (wonder skarang ade lagi ke orang main bola baling) smpai berlumpur2 okayyy hahahaha :P and lower form plak i played lots of basketball! lepas tuuuuu, i got surgery done for my appedicitis and the doc tak kasi i play sports for quite some time tp i mungkar so lepas tu the surgery wound lmbat heal and it hurts everytime i play sports.

and then i slowed down a bit, lepas tu masuk je asrama, haa amek kau, semua orang lagi terer basketball semua orang lagi terer netball and all. memang bye ah. memang time tu i nak pegang bola pun segan sebab dh semua orang tinggi2 and lari laju2 and lagi terer so memang tamat riwayat i bersukan. but yeah, if u ask me, i regret gak la pegi stop bersukan since masuk asrama tu. it's a big loss!!! padahal time lower form tu i siap boleh mengamuk if kelas PJ kene cancel. ekekeke.

sedar tak sedar, it's my 5th year in India. time flies. tak lame lagi i nk balik Malaysia for good dah. doakan i balik on time, and with my MBBS degree :) ya rabbi i tak sabar gile dah nak berkhidmat utk negara (wakakakkakaka padahal tak sabar nk balik Malaysia) tak kesah la tu kan, nak tak nak i terpaksa gak berkhidmat utk korang2 semua nanti. yang penting, doakan i jadi pass my final with flying colours hihiks i takdela berharap sgt nk dapat distinction utk final year ewahhhhh wakakkkakakaka memang tak la weiii final year punye portion mati hidup semula pon kau takkan habis bace, kalau habis bace pun kau tak mungkin ingat semua lol. cukup la i pass dengan senang hati :)

truth is, it scares the shit out of me. the final professional exam. dengan system and format baru nye. memang gila. tapi kite ni student yang tidak berkuasa, apekan daya, orang atasan kate tukar format, kite pun kene la ikut cakap. i dh puas mengadu domba dah pasal ni, looks like luck is not on our side, but pray for us yea! :D

till then, daa!