i was.

once upon a time when i was a 44-kg girl.
HUKM - 2006
(admit it i was kurus!)

once upon a time, berat i 44 kg paling tinggi pun 46 kg.
once upon a time, everyone i met used to freak out seeing me so kurus.
once upon a time, i suka bongkak dekat rakan2 ckp "i dah penat makan byk2 tapi my weight doesn't gain a single kg at all!" dan mereka selalu tension dengan i.
once upon a time, i used to eat like pig every morning afternoon evening night midnight without feeling guilty.
once upon a time, i thought i can never have the hideous belly fat!
once upon a time, ppl mistaken me as an aneroxic. well, that was close.

NOW,
my weight is reaching up to 52 KG shit i'm going insane!!!!
i can no longer bongkak dengan kata2 se-annoying itu.
i still eat like pig but i feel guilty almost immediately (but that doesn't stop me)
i am considering to put an effort to get my butt moving but EXERCISE MEANS TORTURE to me.
i need not say anything about belly fat, it's depressing enough said.

IRONY,
i can't seem to control my eating habit.
i eat everything in the world at anytime anywhere.
i love chocolates and they're my bestfriend for life. (they're the one with me when i'm feeling down)
i wish i can do the running and whatever routines u call it in my dream and wake up feeling healthy and, slim.
no i don't wish to do anything about this. YET.

I NEED MAGIC PILL.