2009 is history

just a recap of what i've learnt and did and (whatever) in 2009.

• the fast selling sarees. the saree hunting, though tiring, was really worth it. thanks to those who bought the sarees.
  
• i'm outdated when it comes to the latest music played on air. haha.
  
• look doesn't count when you're in love.
  
• a good listener is hard to find (a good listener respects what you have to say and critics you only when you finish talking, and of course, in a good manner)
  
• we don't feel like an adult when we're hanging out with our high school friends. omg we're turning 23 so soon!
  
• my little sisters are officially taller (or same) than me. geez.
  
• daily school students really do think those ppl from sbp and mrsm are kampung, kasar etc etc.
  
• attendance commed is so damn low and i dunno how to catch up. hahaha.
  
• sony ericcson suck big time. haha.
  
• manipal students are cool and sporting.
  
• i never really listen to any microbiology lectures. sumpah.
  
• buying 2ndhand goodies is actually not that bad. you get to save a lot of money! but be sure the stuff u're buying is still in good condition.
• your result is what matters most, the fact that you studied so hard doesn't count anymore.

i thought i have more in mind but i couldn't gather them all at the moment. haha. happy new year everyone, let the past be a meaningful memory to us all :)

here and there

these are the only pictures i have, the rest are still with my friends. haha. i dun wanna write anything today. danggg!

cinta camera.

it's funny to see people snap and upload endless photos of themselves. i know it's your camera and your right to snap and upload whichever photos you want, but really, you can't shut people's mouth, not mine, not even all of the people around you.

do you really have to upload endless photos of you erm, pose during the car washing just to let the whole world know you're so rajin, or that oh-so-comel pose of you sedang menyiang ikan just to let us know that you can really do the cooking and all, or picture of your toilet yang bersinar2 just to show the world that you just did the sental-menyental process in your toilet. do you really have to?

a little bit is fine, i mean, everybody does it, especially now that we all have a facebook account where you can upload all the photos in the world. but when it is too much, when you want ur personal photographer to snap pictures of you every single second, to capture every single action that you do, then i think you are just obsessed with yourself. maybe you should sing 'why i'm so obsessed with me'. haha.

a lot of people own an SLR camera today only to upload the photos in facebook. i think it's a waste. you spend so much to buy the SLR, and you end up posting the pictures only on the internet. you don't even bother to get them printed. i cherish all the memories. and i am that person who will get the photos printed and put them nicely in the album (not facebook or flickr album pls)

if i could turn back time, i wish to capture all the memorable moment of me and my loved ones. especially those times when i was on the stage. memorable weh! at least, i had some fun!

i did quite a lot of performances since sekolah rendah. i just love it. i used to sing during the talent time, hahaha, and i stopped singing in form 4 when i realized my voice has become a bit nasal (okay maybe a lot) after a dikir barat performance. hahaha. i did quite a number of traditional malay dance and sketch. but sadly, i don't have much pictures of me performing all those things. seriously, i wish i have all the pictures so i can show the pics to my cucu2 nanti. inspiration sket. hahaha. ok poyo.

see, dulu sangat tak reti nak bertangkap2 gambar. now, gambar mengarut2. gambar tengah cabut bulu ketiak la, gambar vain toksah cakap la, gambar konon comel tengah buat yoga la, gambar konon cantik tengah siram pokok bunga la, kalau boleh gambar tengah kat jamban pun kau nak snap kan. so the funny la these people. (contoh2 tu adalah rekaan semata, but well, u get what i mean kan)

but anyway, the camera really serve the the purpose la. tak sia2 kau beli camera if kau tangkap gmbar of you every second of your life. hahaha. just, i think it's funny, bukan funny yg menghiburkan macam tengok mr. bean, but funny that aku rasa nak muntah hijau berak cacing sebab macam, eeeee kau ni takde kerja lain ke. ha mcm tu.

just a simple tips, if u think you're pretty and comel sgt, don't la lebih2 upload gambar konon cantik and comel yang sah2 kau suruh orang ambik sebab nak upload kat fb and all, sebab daripada kau betul2 comel and cantik, terus aku rasa kau tak cantik mana rupanya. and it's worse if kau dah mmg tak cantik. lol.

unless la kau mmg do it for the sake of photography and modelling. haha.

ok, sekali sekala takpe kot. kalau selalu, haha, suke hati kau la. teruskan usaha menghiasi page fb anda dengan senyuman dan pose menawan anda. semoga stalkers anda terhibur la. hehe. ok bye.

delete dan undo

i just have too much to write. too many opinion to be shared. too much feeling i couldn't just keep and shut up.

i just dunno where to begin, and if i start it all out, i may not know where to stop.

life is a movie. i wish i could watch my life from the start and tell the director which part of my life has gone wrong. but i'm not God.

God knows what's best for me, and i shall believe whatever he planned for me is for the best.

kalaulah kita boleh control hidup dengan butang 'delete' dan 'undo', i'll be using those 2 buttons sampai hilang tulisan dan tercabut.

weh, tak adventurous la life kalau macam tu.

doink, kau tak tau apa bala adventurous aku dah lalui.

knock you down

[Keri Hilson]
Not again
Oh this ain't supposed to happen to me

[Kanye West]
Keep rockin and keep knockin'
Whether you're louis vuittonin it up, or reebokin
You see the hate that they serving on a plater
So what we gon have dessert or disaster?

[Keri Hilson]
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)

[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Ne-Yo]
I never thought I'd hear myself say
Ya'll go ahead
I think I'm gonna to kick it with my girl today
I used to be commander in chief for my pimp ship flying high
Till i met this pretty little missile, who shot me out the sky

Hate to know i'm crashing don't know how it happened
but i know it feels so damn good
Said if i could go back and make it happen faster
don't you know i would baby if i could
Miss independent, to the fullest, the load never too much
she helping me pull it, she shot bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)


[Kanye West]
Tell me now can you make past your caspers
So we could finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams
to seem to only date the head of football teams,
and i was the class clown that always kept you laughing
we were never meant to be, baby we just happened
so please don't mess up the trick,
hey young world, i'm the new slick rick,
they say i move to quick but we can't let this moment past us,
let the hour glass pass right into ashes
let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
so i wrote this love letter right before my classes
how could a goddess ask someone that's only average, for advice
o-m-g you listen to that bitch?
woah is me, baby this is tragic
cause we had it, we was magic
i was flying, now i'm crashing
this is bad, real bad, michael jackson
now i'm mad, real mad, joe jackson
you should leave your boyfriend now, i'ma ask him

[Keri Hilson]
so you gotta take the good, the bad,happy and the sad
but will you bring the better future then i had in the past
cause i don't want to make the same mistakes i did
i don't wanna fall back on my face again
woah, woah
i'll admit it, i was scared to answer loves call
woah, woah
and if it hits, better make it worth the fall

(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)

Won’t see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love comes knocks you down

Won’t see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down

p/s : this is not really my kind of music, but i fell in love with the words.

where's everyone?!

just when i thought i'd spend the whole day with my family, the whole family already has their own different plan for today. sigh. can't really blame them, because it's wednesday and you can't expect them (especially the parents) to stay home and melayan anak-anak.

daddy, despite his title as a pensioner, he's still busy, in fact, he's busier now compared to those days when he was serving Bank Negara for erm, almost 30 years? so, the title pensioner doesn't make him a lazy ass, at all. but being a doting father as he is, he never fail to make time for us all. melayan anak beli itu la ini la send us here and there and believe me when i say he is still willing to send me to which ever place i wish to go (to see my frens) since the availability of the car is very much limited to my dad, mom and brother.

and when i woke up this morning (or more precisely, 12 noon), i went to the kitchen hoping to see daging goreng kentang (my fav! which i requested to mom last nite) on the table but unfortunate for me, there's only sardin inside the tudung saji. mummy has already left for meeting or something. yeah, mummy is a busy woman too. she always always always ask me to tag along and get involve with her business but i said no, my time in malaysia is too precious to get involved with errr, business kinda thing. hey, i already have one! i have my saree business tau! ;p

lil brother has also left for some work i bet. lil sister aisyah went out with her friends. baby is out with, erm im not sure, whether she went out with friends or she tagged along with mom. so now, i'm left home alone with sarah who constantly fart at my face but it's okay because i do the same thing to her. lol. can u imagine, she farted the gases out of her body non-stop during her sleep and mind you, i sleep next to her and her back was facing me! aaaaa depresi ok adik macam ni!

so okay, this entry memang takde motif. i'm just bored. i should've planned something with friends but my intention was to stay home and be a good girl since i've been merendek-ing with my besties since 2-3 days back. bad timing bad timing. i should have known when to go out and when to stay home.

miraculously, i didn't shop much this time around. well maybe because half of my income of selling sarees has already gone to this newly-bought mini laptop. aww i can't believe i buy stuffs with the money that i earn on my own :) i feel very much like an adult. and i can't shop unnecessarily because what's more important now is to get myself a new handphone. i've been using handphone pinjam which belongs to my dad (he has one for emergency purpose) because my bloody sony ericcson went dead the moment i reached klia. sumpah tak tipu.

i feel like writing more and i'll catch up with this later. let's watch TV! daaa!

what would you do?

so what would you do, if your best friends hate your boyfriend? or your boyfriend hates your best friends?

so what would you do, if your boyfriend bitches about your best friends to you? and how would you react if your best friends tell you how much they hate your boyfriend.

you love both party, but they hate each other. what would you do?

it happens in real life. i admit i do hate some of my best friends' boyfriend(s), and i must admit i've been in this situation before. it's not easy really.

you can't choose. you just can't. you need both because boyfriend can't replace best friends, and best friends can't replace boyfriend. they're just different.

and what if it happens to you that your sister or brother hates your boyfriend? and they don't bother to make friends with your boyfriend? or what if your boyfriend's sister or brother hates you? or maybe, your boyfriend hates your siblings? how will you deal with this sucky condition?

you can do everything in this world to impress the other family, but what if everything goes unnoticed? what if your effort goes to waste? are you going to put away that ego? are you not?

depressing right?

here comes the worst ever situation.

so what would you do, if your daddy hates your boyfriend? and mummy hates him too. what would you do if your boyfriend can't seem to get along with them both. what would you do? dare to have a sweet escape with him to a faraway land? dare to marry someone without your parents' blessing? so what would you do?

or what if the boyfriend's parents hate you for no concrete reasons? and you've been putting so much effort to ditch the hatred only to know that they hate you even more than before. what would you do?

it's like a dead end. loving someone who is hated by other important people around you is the most terrible situation ever.

so dear best friends, sisters, brothers, dads, moms, you don't wanna see your lovely daughter/friend/sister lives in depression, don't you? just stop the hating. stop the bitching. stop right now.

drama rama. are you not tired of hating each other?

p/s : none of the above is related to my current situation, so yeah, don't get the wrong idea about me.

random things that annoy me lately.

1. bila orang perasan dia ada maid 24/7 dekat rumah and buat perangai tak basuh pinggan and buang semua hampas saki baki makanan dalam sink. like seriously, tak susah kot nak buang saki baki makanan tulang2 ayam ke sayur2 yg kau tak makan ke dalam tong sampah which is just below the sinki, tapi maybe kau lagi seronok kot tengok sink tersumbat lepas tu tulang2 ayam tu berenang2 dalam sinki. kalau kau yg buat perangai pun geli nak basuh sinki lepas tu, apa lagi aku yang memang tak buat perangai mcm tu? damn annoying man.

2. orang yang plan hebat and cakap lebat lepas tu cancel last minute. pantang kot. kau pikir kalau kau cancel tak jadi join ke apa, kau tak affect plan orang lain? kau tak affect mood orang lain?

3. any forms of oral/viva examination/assessment. because seriously, how fair can the lecturers be when assessing the students through viva/oral examination? firstly, different lecturers will assess different students. and we all know, ada lecturers suka tanya soalan senang ada lecturers suka tanya soalan susah, and their way of giving marks pun different. so tell me, where is standardization? lagi satu, the students won't be getting same opportunity to answer etc etc because some students will repeatedly get simple/short question and they'll get only a few marks and some students will repeatedly get long question and they'll get goooood marks. abis budak yg dapat soalan senang2 tu the lecturers assume tak mampu or tak boleh jawab soalan panjang2? omg annoying okkaaayyy! this is based solely on luck, oklah takde la solely, but erm, 80% on LUCK! this is why i prefer written examination!

4. orang yang cannot take jokes. orang yang immediately marah or menangis or buat muka or whatever when all i do was joking. it wasn't even overrated. i seriously tak tau how to react with these people. just forgive me for being a big joker. maybe, i will always be me, and you will always be you.

ok dah. puas hati aku.

i need something new

I THINK I'm gonna get myself a new laptop and a new handphone in the near future. I never care much about what gadgets I'm using, I might be using the oldest model of all but I never really give a damn about it. You see, I'm very much a loyal person, even to my belongings. I don't change stuff every other month just to be up-to-date. There's really no need for that, at least not for me.

But my laptop, which is already 4 years old (going 5), is giving me endless headache. Yes, it's the old model of Acer. Who would have thought that I manage to cope up with this beloved laptop of mine till now? Being a careless or more precisely, buta technology like I am, my laptop has been going in and out the computer shop (and some friends yg gempak technology) for already million times! And it is still very much alive, only that again, my laptop requires an urgent treatment which I refuse to give so because I have so many precious files in it and my external harddisc is already running full. Sigh.

Speaking about getting a new laptop, I'm thinking of getting a new handphone too. And I swear not to get anything from Sony Ericsson ever again. Sony Ericsson, to me, is a piece of rubbish. My previous handphones lasted for at least a year, but this Sony Ericsson hasn't yet reached its 1st anniversary with me but has already become a semi-useless one. The keypad doesn't work (note that this isn't the first time) but luckily little dinosour found a way for me to cope up with the keypad, at least for now. He accidentally found out that I can only do the typing on my phone when I slide the phone back in. Okay that's a little leceh but well, I have to sabar with this,

And now, money? Wow wow wow. My parents are not gonna donate any cents to me to get a new laptop and handphone. So arrrggghhh, can I get both in the near future? Considering the fact that I have to save a big portion of my money for some other missions as well. Haish.

I can't wait for weekend. This week has been a tiring week. No wait, actually it was nothing different from the previous week. Every week is a tiring week. But next week, I'll be home sweet home :) can't wait~!

Thanks to Nonie, I'm blogging from her house at the moment. lol. My internet connection has expired 2 days back so it'll need some time to get it renewed. That's all for now. Daaa.

the show

I just got back from Manipal. I attended Lagenda along with Malaysian Food Festival, an event held in Manipal, organized by the Malaysian students in Manipal. Finally get to indulge myself with awesome performances and goooood Malaysian dishes!

What I love about Manipal is (obviously not the small town of Manipal lol) the student life. The students are cool enough, sporting enough, enthusiastic enough, to work together and make the event a successful one. The performances include traditional malay dance, indian dance (by malay students hello!), western dance (my personal favourite), mimicry, singing, silat,fashion show dikir barat(from my uni) and many more.

I believe they're just as busy as other medical students (omg tak, they're in fact busier than us in bangalore - yes pls, my bf is always busier than me!), and still they're able to put a whole lot of effort to choreograph and practise the routines etc etc. Costumes pun gempak okay. I'm sorry for being jakun, I mean, I'm just a little (tipu) disappointed with the fact that my uni really lack of this trait. Like, semua orang pun malas malas malas malas malas nak involve malas nanti rugi weekend kena practise malas nanti kena spend duit malas just malas sebab bontot malas nak gerak. Ouh that mentality, i despise!

I know la we're living in this urban (oh really?) area where it takes hardly 20 minutes to reach the cinema, shopping mall, expensive restaurants etc etc u name it but still, is that the only way to enjoy uni life? Whether or not this place is boring, is really up to the students. Bak kata Baz la kan, kau nak uni buat event gempak2, tapi kau contribute sikit pun tanak, tau datang nak tengok nak makan nak complaint lepas tu balik. Wow habis VVIP la tu?

OK any critics from any coward anonymous who doesn't have balls to even tell the world who you are before start critisizing? lol.

p/s : i was told that the indian dance performance was done by some malay girls and GUYS, how sweeeeeet is thattt! and please note, they're not sissy!

education is not for sale

oh yes i'm still breathing, through my mouth for god's sake!

finally, the lazy me is back. this is what i call heaven, being able to lie comfortably on my bed, with my (ever so lembap) laptop, a regular-sized pizza as dinner and err, stuffy runny nose. looks like heaven doesn't seem so heaven anymore.

great thing is the fever is almost gone. i've been taking paracetamol without fail for the past errr, (let me do the counting) 5 days!! yes, had a intermittend kinda fever since sunday. was fine on monday, but not until the night came and it has been going on till err, today? paracetamol, don't do damage to my liver pls.

i was supposed to have 3 friggin' tests this week. 1 pathology test yesterday, 1 pathology test and 1 microbiology test today. funny thing is, i was up studying microbiology yesternite (note : only microbiology and none from pathology) only to know that the microbiology test is postponed till next week! great! padan muka sendiri sebab study microb je tak study patho, apa bajet superstar in patho?

i guess i'm still a nerd at heart. lol. i actually forced myself to study until the wee hours though i was down with fever and stuffy runny nose. i actually forced myself to go to microb practical when i should be resting at home. okay padahal kena jugak pegi microb for the sake of my attendance kan. padahal 1st test microb dulu i boleh tak study siap berpesta lepas tu markah mcm harem kan. ha amek kau amek kauuu!

okay enough complaining, i'm recovering anyways! home sweet home is 2 weeks away from now. final exam is milessssss away! (lol pls sedar diri) i promise i will sedar by january! yes, not now pls.