please justify this

"find someone who loves you more than you love him"

too many people said so,
CARE TO EXPLAIN?
pls pls pls.

sesedap alam!

if you want to please me, get me a bar (or moreee!!) of cadbury crunchie. sumpah segala persengketaan kita langsai, zero-zero and i love u! because i have this unexplained obsession and passion for this chocolate since the past 12 years (or more?)

dulu zaman2 sekolah rendah, i used to go mengaji at this one tuition centre. oh yes, tuition centre youuuu, best sikit boleh kuar umah malam2 rather than panggil ustaz datang rumah mengaji dekat rumah depan mak bapak so tak best sbb takde member2 kan (astaghfirullahalazim, niat dah menyimpang jauh) tapi lepas tu memang my father did that, dia panggil ustaz datang rumah ajar kitorang mengaji, amek kau tak dpt lepak dengan member2 dah.

eh eh, tercerita pasal mengaji pulak. ha, the point is, everytime lepas mengaji dekat that tuition centre, adalah perkara wajib bagi i adalah untuk pergi kedai SS-eleven (bukan 7-11) untuk borong crunchie sebatang dua. jumlah pemborongan adalah berkadar terus dengan jumlah pengumpulan duit belanja pergi sekolah. sumpah tak tipu. bapak i tak cukup sporting utk bagi duit belanja pergi mengaji. haha banyak gedik aku la kan nak demand duit belanja pergi mengaji padahal before pergi dah dinner kat rumah balik pun supper dah tercongok atas meja, nak kene tempeleng ke demand duit belanja pegi mengaji?

i tak igt langsung who introduced me to this yummy chocolate bar tau2 i dah addicted to this choc since the past ermmm, 12 yearss???! damn! and bloody hell dulu this choc bar was only rm1.70 now it is rm3.60! rm1.70 was already expensive okay tatkala di zaman kanak2 dulu. just imagine belanja sehari adelah dalam rm1.50 the most pun rm2 time tu, lepas tu nak beli choc dah rm1.70, aku nak makan apa dekat sekolah? makan pasir? tapi demi cinta yg mendalam for this choc, i gagahkan jua kumpul duit just to indulge myself in this choc sesedap alam semesta!

time tu apek kedai SS-eleven tu dah tau dah kalau ada muka budak ni pakai tudung nampak jambul pakai spek bulat memang confirm nak borong crunchie, takde lain punya. lepas tu slow2 the harga increased, and taraf hidup kanak2 sekolah pun alhamdulillah meningkat selaras dengan kenaikan harga crunchie, maka duit belanja sekolah i pun di-upgrade sikit demi sedikit jadi dengan itu, still mampu borong crunchie everytime pergi mengaji. good thing!

and sampai lah dah habis sekolah, crunchie ttp dalam hati. haha. and org2 yg bebetul kenal me memang tau this is my fav choc ever maka dengan itu crunchie telah menjadi medium untuk memujuk, mem-bribe, mengorat dan sebagainya.

dan telah terbukti berkesan.


tunggu ape lagi? (kepada little dinosour)

She's gone to heaven so I've gotta be good.

Di syurga,
Aku akan minta,
Hanya kamu, dan kamu saja.

Kamu akan aku jadikan,
My favourite pet,
Aku akan cintasayangciumpelukgomol,
Sampai lebam.

Dan sekarang,
Let's not waste anymore time,
Aku mahu bilang,
Selamat tinggal selamat jalan.

Kita jumpa lagi,
Lepas mati nanti.

creepy girlfriend and nerdy boyfriend

I spent 2 hours stalking this guy thru the webcam. ahahaha. miss you so much babyyy! Why so nerdy? ahahaha, tak laahhh, he's on study leave, kena la jadi nerd kannn?




I have more snapshots of him studying, lap hingus sebab flu, buat muka retarded sebab stress study and muka steam sebab ngantuk. But I need not upload all the pics, 5 pics already make me look like a creepy girlfriend. LOL. I hate this guy because he is so jauh lepas tu gatal nak jugak couple jauh2 lepas tu tinggal girlfriend sorang2 dekat sini. Sigh. Nasib baik kau kacak! LDR sucks :( hmmm. miss you baby!

And here's the creepy girlfriend who woke up at 1.30 pm, bunked O&G theory test (purposely, I'll make up to that later I swear!!), haven't took her bath during the webcam-ing session (sekarang pun) and was trying hard to focus on studying but Saturday is just too precious to be wasted on heavy stuffs (dushhh! tumbuk muka sendiri!!)

kids don't lie

This is a story about a little girl, who used to tell the truth to everyone, and got punished by her mom for telling the truth. Yes, I'm talking about myself.

Situation 1

I was 9 years old. One day, I was absent from the class due to fever (kot?can't really recall but I really was sick) And the next day ;

Ustazah : kenapa awak tak datang semalam?
Me : saye tak sehat, ustazah.
Ustazah : mane MC?
Me : oh, saye takde MC sebab mak saya doctor, dia yang bagi ubat.
Ustazah : awak jangan nak bohong! (hoi ini dah start naik suara bagi satu kelas dengar yg dia nak ckp aku ni memang kaki penipu)
Me : betul la ustazah, mak saye doctor. die yg check saye sakit ape pastu die bagi ubat. bersungguh2 kan explain)
Ustazah : awak jangan nak buat cerita lah!
Me : (sedih)

And when I get home, I told mom what happened, hoping that she would be on my side! (duh, of course she will, I didn't do anything wrong!). And guess what she said ;

Mom : sape suroh ckp mak doctor???!! pepandai jeee (and membebel mcm ustazah dekat sekolah)
Me : (bengang, pahal nak marah lak kan? memang btol kot dia yg bagi ubat sume!)

Little did I know the fact that my mom stated that she was a housewife in the parents form for the school record. Sigh. Patutlah marah. I really dunno why she refused to state that she was working as a doctor instead. And patutlah the ustazah thought I was lying, my mom sendiri yg mengaku housewife in the borang. Tak pasal2 anak kena cop penipu.



Situation 2

It was Ramadhan. I was around ermmm, 7 years like that kot (argh can't recall) and as usual, tak puasa la kan. The most pun puasa half-day. And my mom was on "holiday" so she joined me for lunch and all la kan. And on the evening, I went out to the playground with the kids in my neighbourhood.

Noi : awak puasa takkk??
Me : takkk, awak??
Noi : eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, tak puasaaaa! kite puasa!
Me : alaaa takpe laa, mak kite tak puasa gak!
Noi : eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, mak awak pun tak puase?????
Me : a'ah.
Noi : eeeee, mane leh tak puasa, kalau tak puasa dapat dosa tauu. nape mak awak tak puase blablabla (tak igt)
Me : (I was annoyed that she said my mom berdosa sebab tak puasa!)

Maghrib was approaching and so I went back home. I told mom that my friend said 'mak berdosa sebab tak puasa' wahaha (how could I kan? but I was dead innocent I couldn't care less)

Mom : sape suro ckp mak tak puasa??? orang tak puasa ade la sebab diaaa!

and thanks mom for membebel-ing at me without telling me the exact reason why she didn't fast that day. I was left confused and upset (again, sebab kena marah for telling my friend the truth) I didn't know the reason until I was mature enough to understand things on my own. No wonder she was furious about it.

Little kids really do tell the truth, kan?

p/s : sorry mom, u're the victim of my honesty ;p

missing in action.

homaigod! been really busy rasa nak buat drama keling bunuh diri dekat train railway belakang rumah sebab stress. can u just imagine, i had to prepare for my study group in weekend, monday ada pharmacology seminar which is equivalent to our weekly (YES, WEEKLY mannn!) assessment, tuesday (tadi) got viva(oral test) on parasitology, tomorrow got pathology tutorial, lusa i got O&G practical test AND pathology tutorial, saturday i probably have O&G theory pulak. and to make everything worse, i have one clinical thesis to be done within 1 month and i dun even have the topic just yet! STRESSS!!!!!!

3rd internal assessment is just 1 month away. then ada 1 week gap je with the final. and the schedule telah dibuat oleh manusia2 yg igt those who are taking the exam are robots, bloody packed okay!

please please doakan all of us pass the exam dengan jayanya. so btw, i pon dah hilang point apa nak tulis about daily school vs boarding school. wahahahah, so i doubt i will continue writing about it, kalau ada pun, bila2 when i'm free kot, which is definitely not in the near future.

so now, i'm gonna crack myself thinking about what topic i should write for my clinical thesis! timing nak sucky kan, orang nak final, kau suro buat thesis, time aku free dulu2 tanak suro pulak (ahaha dasar budak last minute, kau bagi la kerja time bile pon, mesti aku bising ;p )

okay peeps, i might be away from blogging for quite some time kot. cey, rasenye la. need to focus on whats more important :( penatnya!

p/s : no more commed classesss yaww! guilt-free at last! hahahah

daily school vs boarding school.

i memang suka nak buat conflict kan! eh yelah, i sedar diri especially lepas anonymous sorang ni sound i kate i suka nak buat conflict tak pasal2. ahaha, boleh panggil i pencetus conflict la kalau camtu wahahaha.

ok lari topic, padahal nak ckp psl daily school vs boarding school. before that let me make everyone clear that i come from both background, i was in daily coed school from form 1 till form 3 and then went to single sex boarding school in form 4 till i finished secondary school. so i consider myself as someone who is pretty much aware of the pros and cons of both schools.

i wanna raise an issue, "budak sbp/mrsm ade mentality kampung and kasar". that was a statement made by some daily school students after mingling with those people from boarding school in their unis. and to my surprise, there is such thing as 'diorang budak asrama so i tak campur, tak boleh masuk blablabla' and 'i tak mingle ok dengan budak daily school' even after entering unis. really weh? why soo laa? adakah korang sgt tak boleh masuk dengan each other? adakah budak daily school terlalu urban and budak asrama terlalu kampung? wahahahha.

honestly, i had the same perception about boarding school students when i first entered boarding school. well i dunno the exact definition or what does they really meant by 'mentality kampung' but i'm guessing it's their taste la, contohnya macam taste in music, taste in clothing, the way they speak, their lifestyle, the places they hang out etc tc. and apparently, to them, being kasar is also perangai kampung.

is there really any difference? okay honestly, i was not used of using aku-engkau back in lower form. i was more comfortable using kite-awak and i-u and my way of speaking pun was a bit decent. and when i entered boarding school, everyone started using aku-kau and some of them memang a bit kasar la but well, i didn't think it was a big problem so i adapted to that slowly. but hey, it's not that we cannot speak nicely and politely. so mcm, whats the big deal kan? i can switch myself from using i-u or kita-awak or whatever and talk really politely,gedikly and ayu to using aku-kau and talk a bit, err, well, selambe? but well, comparing my daily school and my boarding school, that was quite a major difference and i really do switch my way of speaking when i hang out with my lower form friends and my upper form friends. i dunno about other daily school though.

mentality kampung? well well. look whos talking. i guess people yg soooo urban mmg takkan boleh masuk dengan those people from outside KL/selangor kot? yes there are such people yg perasan urban habis just because they live in tempat konon best. the moment they know u're not from these 2 areas, u're out of the circle. seriously, kenapa tak nak belajar kenal orang?

oh yes, u can't expect all the students in boarding school come from KL and selangor (though mine had a majority of the students from these places) so u can't expect students semua ada mentality KL atau mentality klang valley (whatever thats supposed to mean) of course la these people from perlis ada their own way of thinking, and those from kelantan and terengganu ada this kind of mentality and those from sabah sarawak pulak mcm ni. mingle, kenal, and absorb apa yang baik ignore apa yg tak baik, tak boleh ke dol? (kan dah keluar bahasa kasar asrama aku)

i'm proud to say that i have friends from all over malaysia, dari perlis smpai ke sabah sarawak, semua pun i baik. memang la some ada mentality diorang yg mmg tak kena dengan i, byk ah jugak kekadang, pasal baju, pergaulan, the way you celebrate something, music, etc etc, tapi kau sengih kambing sudeyh bila diorang express opinion diorang yg tak berapa nak kena dengan kau tu. u can't say they're wrong and u're right, because to them, u're wrong and they're right. so, susah nak terima? respect each other sudeyh!

contoh ; it's your birthday and u're planning to celebrate it at an expensive restaurant, nak buat 7 hari 7 malam, tapi dijamin free from alcohol dan babi-babian, sekali ada minah dari ____ kata 'babe, buat ape awak abis duit celebrate mahal2 padahal celebrate bday jer which means awak setahun lagi dekat dgn kematian, kan lebih elok buat doa selamat, kan babe?'

ha, kau nak sentap? nak kata minah tu conservative, kampung, tak fun segala? lepas dia ckp camtu terus kau canang satu uni kata minah tu blardy kampung dasar budak asrama i dun wanna be friend with u. like dat one ka? lepas tu terus keluar general statement "budak asrama ni mentality kampung" pergh. tak pasal2 aku terpaksa terasa dan tersentap, sebab aku pon separuh asrama gak, wahahahha. ok tak, buat ape aku nak sentap, tak sesensitive itu utk sentap.

just, i was driven to write about this sebab mcm tak patut kot ckp orang tu mentality kampung lagi2 ckp budak asrama ni mentality kampung. apa mentality kau terlalu bandar ke? apa mentality yg terlampau bandar tu baik2 belaka ke? apakah kau rasa duduk kl, subang, hartamas, klang, damansara, pulau penang, johor bahru dan sekolah dekat sekolah harian tu terlalu lavish dan urban dan mentality korang sgt upper east side sampai suka suki buat statement orang lain yg duduk asrama adalah sgt kampung dan conservative? ni mmg conflict besar nih wahahaha, nantikan sambungannya dalam entry seterusnya. (ayat nak berunsur mempromote kan!)

terpakse sambung nanti la, i ngantuk, esok nak kene bangun pagi beli pasar tuk barang2 dapur rumah. pergh, ckp mcm laki orang kena paksa ngan bini pegi pasar (err my dad la tu hahaha) ok, esok la sambung! daaa.

makin byk belajar,makin gendut.

mannn, theory ini adalah sgt bertepatan dengan aku. aku tidak lah tidak gendut kalau tak study (note negative-negative is positive, if u get what i mean) tapi makin aku study, makin byk aku kunyah.

ok tak lawak. everytime balik malaysia, aku mesti borong segala jenis kerepek dan keropok ikan- kerepek bawang, kerepek ubi, kerepek pisang, kerepek yg mcm fries ada pepper tu, kerepek yg macam roda basikal tu - okay blame me aku mmg noobshit(bak kata joe) dengan name2 kerepek.

so long story short (konon panjang sgt je kan), stok kerepek dah pun tamat riwayat. pasal ape? pasal monthly test yg tak berapa nak monthly (monthly apa weh kalau dlm seminggu ada 2-3 tests, ini boleh bikin aku bunuh diri) adalah sgt mendepresikan sebab mcm they come one after another. argh gua stresss.

setiap kali tengah blaja, otak aku dah tentu la bekerja keras (cececeyyy) lepas tu mulut aku pun suke nak buat kerja part time siap kunyah segala benda yg aku ada daripada kerepek, gula2, chocs, nak lagi extreme aku sanggup pegi buat roti telur sekejap lepas tu study sambil makan. maka meja study aku bukan saje dipenuhi buku2 dan alatan menulis, tapi juga bekas2 chocolate dan juge gula2 everytime lepas belajar. kalau tengok aku dari jauh mesti kau orang confuse aku nih tgh belajar bersungguh2 ke melantak bersungguh2.

dan resultnya, tak sampai sebulan aku balik dari malaysia, stok chocolate dah tentu habis, gula2 tinggal separuh, kerepek habis weh, tinggal keropok ikan je (ni pun aku sanggup goreng dulu before start blaja lepas tu baru blaja) ha kau, gendut tak gendut!

betullah senior2 aku ckp, time2 camni mmg dah permulaan zone stress dan bekerja keras. walaupun aku belum start bekerja keras membanting tulang bersekang mata bak kata orang putih burning the midnite oil, tapi kecuak-kan 3rd internal assessment and especially the final professional exam mmg belum terasa. (hoi nak kena penampar?! dah rase ok!)

lagi2 tadi time nak beli tix to london for our summer holiday, pergh! conflict yg maha besar ok! okay habis exam semua2 InsyaAllah 28th March, tapi viva boleh pulak buat 2nd April (to those who dunno, viva adalah oral examination conducted for students yg marks dia close to the borderline untuk pass the subject) Dahla tix murah is on 2nd April, next murah 5th April. so nak beli 5th april mcm 'aaaaa byknya masa terbuang, lagi2 kalau aku tak kena viva' tapi kalau beli 2nd april lak mcm 'gila yakin sekali kau kena viva padan muka tak pepasal kena tukar date of departure, penalty is RS6K which is equivalent to approximately RM500++'. ha bagitau, nak yakin ke nak be on the safe side? stress kan stress kann??

maka dengan itu, jom belajar so that tak kena viva! do expect a fatter me by early April. toodles!

habis rajin ahhh?!

probability

Aku cas positif,
Kau cas negatif.

Kebarangkalian untuk ;
Putus,
Pergi,
Hilang,
Tak kembali.

Adalah,
ZERO.

Magic words

Your words make me ;
smile,
laugh,
cry,
irritated,
angry,
blind.

Your words ;
they're good at manipulating,
me.

And with your words ;
I fell in love.
Deeply.

What makes a good listener?

Listening to someone can be tricky. Everybody can listen to you, but not everyone is a good listener. Don't you know there's a list of rules for everything? A good listener is someone who follows the rules. Simple.

1. Respect her opinion and feelings. No matter how wrong she is to you, she has the right to think she's right. So, give her time to let it all out before saying anything that can stop her from doing so. (Hint : Not a good time to say she's totally wrong just yet)
2. Now that she's done letting everything out, you can say what you feel. Whether what she did was wrong or that she needs to open up a little more. But be careful with your words, or she'll regret saying anything to you forever.
3. When she says she's mad or disappointed or whatever with her loved ones, it strictly means 'just mad' or 'just disappointed'. Hate is not the question here. So why bother saying bad things about those people she loves?
   Example ; Diya says "I geram gile dekat my dad sebab die tak sporting langsung I nak pegi dating pon tak boleh." And the friend says "Yea lah, ur dad is so annoying okay I'm glad he's not my dad if not I tak boleh nak dating with my bf hari2" Like WTF? And it applies to all the people she loves, no matter what sort of relationship they have.
   
4. Not everyone is lucky to have a solution to the problem she's facing. So don't waste your time cracking your brain for a perfect solution because having you to listen to her already makes her a lucky girl. But anyway, it's good if you can provide her with good advice.
5. Show your interest and concern. She'll feel loved.
   
6. If she complaints about the same thing you're facing, wait till she finishes before complaining back to her.
   Example : Gf says "I'm so fed-up my classes are packed, lecturer I assigned kitorang buat thesis due esok pagi atas meja dia before 6am, I blk rumah kucing I berak merata kat bilik I, and now I'm broke nak beli air sirap setengah gelas pun I tak mampu, aaaa stresss!!Lepas tu..." and the bf cut in the conversation, "U tatau I lagi teruk, tiap pagi kne bangun kol 5 drive to work kalau lmbt jammed nnti I smpai lmbt boss I mengamuk blablabla" OMG pls? At least comfort your girlfriend first kot??
7. The most important thing, even if you disagree with her, be gentle with your words.
   

Make someone's day by listening to her. It's not that hard anyway kan? In case I left out anything, do add some more.

Mokusatsu

Mokusatsu adalah sepatah bahasa Jepun yg bermaksud "to ignore" or "killing with silence". I came across this particular word in my TOK(Theory of Knowledge) class about 4-5 years back. Kau jangan tak tau TOK tu subjek kegemaran aku sebab aku suka cakap2 and bagi idea2 (who cares if ur ideas are craps) dan theory ciptaan sendiri and the best part of TOK is no matter how crappy your ideas are, they are all acceptable and worth discussing! Heeee.

Allow me to define Mokusatsu according to my understanding. The closest malay word that explains mokusatsu is "merajuk lama2 sampai kau rasa bersalah". Okay that's not a word, that's one whole line. Because merajuk alone doesn't give the same meaning as Mokusatsu.

For some people, it's better to remain silent than arguing, especially with someone yang suka ikut kepala dia lepas tu tanak dengar pendapat orang. Maka orang yg lagi satu maybe akan ckp sepatah dua ayat makan dalam and senyap smpai the other person rasa guilty and say sorry for not hearing what u have to say. Just an example. Tak semestinya argument, sometimes kalau kau kena bantai dengan bapak kau lepas tu kau merajuk senyap diam tak kuar bilik tunggu tengah malam baru pegi dapur senyap2, I consider that one as mokusatsu. Biar bapak aku rasa bersalah sebab anak dia kelaparan tak makan nnt sakit2 masuk hospital sume sebab dia bantai aku siang tadi. Hahaha.

Aku rasa i can never practise mokusatsu. Silent treatment wak lu la. Silent torture ade la. I can never stand silence and I can never stand a situation when myself is not heard. I know, the aim of mokusatsu is so that the other person feels guilty and comes back to you to let you speak up for urself, but call me impatient, I really can't wait for that to happen. I wanna be heard right away.

Apart from myself being irritatingly impatient, people will never get it that I am sulking. And that makes me wait even more longer for them to come back at me and say sorry blablabla so might as well fight for it argue bertumbuk tarik rambut segala at least both parties hear each other, done with it, and we're friends again. Rather than kau merajuk 10 hari, nak pujuk 20 hari, bincang2 lagi 10 hari, bila nak settle bang oi? Mokusatsu is so not for me. But it does work perfectly with some other people.

Except for my parents. Of course la, takkan aku nak mengamuk kat parents aku. Kalau nak kena sepak terajang zionis mak aku try la. haha. Mak aku adalah pelakon handalan terbaik kategori veteran sebab all my friends akan cakap aku penipu gila when I say mak aku adalah mak tergarang dalam alam semesta because my mum is super lembut wa cakap sama lu bila dia layan kawan2 aku. Hah, lepas tu aku la kan yang kena tuduh penipu.

Disebabkan perangai aku sedikit setan di masa muda remaja, aku agak dah rasa la keganasan zionis mak aku. Aku malas nak cerita byk pasal keganasan mak aku sebab nanti korang tanak kawan dengan mak aku pulak kan. Tapi paling aku takleh blah sampai sekarang was when aku selambe dek keluar jugak when she already said no(and that was zaman upper form). Ape ada hal time tu kan. Sebab time tu agak tak boleh salahkan aku la, I told her a week earlier aku nak kuar that day, memula green light, but tetibe on that day itself mak aku kata kau jangan keluar dan itu adalah muktamad and jangan harap nak dapat talian hayat eventhough kau menangis bagai nak rak.

Ahhh, nak kuar jugak! Tapi cakap dalam hati la kan, lepas tu terus bantai keluar jugak. Balik je rumah (time tu maghrib), aku tak sempat pun jejak kaki dalam gate, tetiba ada bijik jagung melayang dari pintu rumah, tapi aku elak sepantas kilat ah. Mak aku rupenye, damnnn! Sharp shooter baling bijik jagung wehhh, tau ah baru lepas makan jagung rebus. Lepas tu dia bantai mengamuk dari pintu rumah I was sure jiran tetangga dengar wahahahha I kept silent je ahh nak buat camane lagi, takkan nak main baling2 bijik jagung lak kan. Lepas puas dia mengamuk dia cakap kau duduk luar jgn masuk rumah and slammed the door. Ha kau, sadis tak sadis la kan. Nak masuk ikut tingkap mmg tak muat ah, so aku layan je la duduk luar rumah sampai malam. Nasib baik bapakku selamba rock, he was the one yg let me in tapi gelakkan aku sebab kena marah. Wahaha. Cis.

Lepas tu ingat nak mokusatsu. Memang mokusatsu pun. I locked myself in my room, tak turun makan at all (ok tipu, I did, when everyone fell asleep, tak pun mintak tlg adik amekkan nasik letak ayam 2 ketul kuah banyak sikit letak kicap jugak bawak naik atas) it went on for a few days. Tapi sadly mak aku tak rasa tindakan aku utk merajuk tu adalah comel atau menyayat hati, so dia buat selambe dek dia. Aku dah agak, so finally I gave up. Tau2 dah baik sendiri.

Same goes to my dad. Walaupun tak zionis, but jiwa selamba rock dia membuatkan dia mcm "ohhh abah tatau lak kau merajuk" so dia pun akan buat selamba dek kalau aku bermokusatsu. Dahla my parents are the only people I can't mengamuk with, thus making them as the only people I can practise mokusatsu with, tapi my mokusatsu will remain mokusatsu for years without them pujuk-ing me back 'alalalala anak mama merajuk ke meh sini meh mama pujuk'. Memang tak ahhh wehh. Even if my mom suddenly does that, maybe aku akan kena shock syndrome sebab macam 'is that even you,mom?'

Mokusatsu dengan boyfriend or friends? Memang tak ah, lagi2 friends. Boyfriend okay lagi kot, kadang2 merajuk la, tapi lepas mengamuk, wahahahaha. Tapi dengan friends, merajuk kee? So not me kot. Kalau aku terasa, it's either "cis kau takpe next time aku kenakan kau pulak" atau sound direct sudeyh. Takde keja aku nak lock myself up in my room sebab merajuk dengan kawan. LOL. Agak muntah hijau di situ. I prefer to discuss the argument though it sucks sometimes but it's better off that way dari kau merajuk and the situation keeps hanging. Annoying kot!

But amazingly, guys do prefer mokusatsu. Cam, 'lu pikir la sendiri gua malas nak cakap' tapi bila benda yg aku pikir tu tak sama dengan apa yg kau pikir kau marah pulak tapi lepas tu mokusatsu tanak ckp pape pulak. Igt otak aku adalah photostat kepada otak kau ke boleh pulak nak fikir macam kau. Speak up man.

Mokusatsu can benefit you, but most of the time for me, it worsen the situation. Itu apa yang aku fikir, suka hati aku la kan. Kalau kau rasa mokusatsu tu the best superb fantastic bombastic, go ahead, aku tak kata kau salah, ok anonymous? Haha. Off.



Sumpah time kecik2 I used to be jealous of this blardy kid! Amboi manja gila kau dengan mak kauuu, yang maknye pun satuuu, nak manje2kan anak lepas tu masuk dlm TV, igt aku tak jealous? itu pemikiran aku masa kecik. And pernah cakap macam ni kat my mom ;

Me : Mak, nape mak budak tu dlm TV baik gilaaa...nape mak tak mcm tu pun?? (muka innocent mintak belas kasihan dan perhatian seorang ibu)

Mom : (sambil layan baby baru - adik aku la tu) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (hoi ini gelak tahap melampau okayyy!) itu berlakon je laaa HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (sempat sambung gelak)

Me : (rasa diperbodohkan sejurus kemudian terus sedih)

esoknya my mom braged about my question to my dad and sambung gelak. Cissss!!!

p/s : tp aku rasa iklan fernleaf lagi satu la, yg ada dian p.ramlee tu. ke aku ngigau?

p/s : zionis pun zionis la, that makes me a person today. (walaupun mokusatsu aku selalu gagal sigh)

haters are confused admirers

especially to dearest anonymous yg sangat sentap and tak puas hati dengan post 'cinta camera' i posted about 2 weeks ago.

we all do have different opinion. mine is not the same as yours and i'm sure of that. ada orang annoyed gila if kau drive slow2 just because u believe in the saying 'biar lambat asal selamat' and orang yg drive slow ni confirm la annoyed dengan kau yang drive laju mcm pelesit lepas tu buat driver kereta kiri kanan kau mengucap sebab takut terlanggar kereta kau, just because kau rasa drive laju adalah cool and stylo. lepas tu masing2 express rasa tak puas hati masing2 dalam blog, weh, mampos diorang la nak tulis apa pun dah itu apa yg diorang rasa, kau apa ade hal dowh?

aku mcm nak bagi lagi contoh tapi aku tak rasa otak lu lembap lempong slow mcm basikal roda tiga kan. my point is, everyone has their own opinion. ada orang otak dia stereotype, ada orang otak dia radical, so who are you to change their stand? lain ah lu ni lalang, bestfriend lu kata tepek taik kat muka boleh jadi cun, lu pun ikut sama. ha. lain la kan. tapi aku tak rasa otak kau lagi bodoh dari otak lembu.

so anyway, back to the real thing. minah, kau kata aku bitch pasal orang, boleh kau bagitau aku celah mane aku tulis or specify sape2? suka hati samad la nak tulis dia benci orang drive slow because he thinks orang yg bawak slow tu mcm pondan, not macho enough and menyesak and melambatkan jalan raya as long as dia tak tulis 'aku benci raju sebab dia drive slow macam pondan dahla pendek muka jambu lepas tu drive slow, so the pondan'. kan? and suka hati raju la nak tulis kat blog dia yang dia benci orang drive laju tak pikir driver lain on the road and boleh lead to accident, selfish, bajet stylo tp tak pk safety etc etc janji dia tak tulis 'aku rasa samad tu takde otak bajet stylo macho la konon bawak kete laju2 tu, aku doakan kau terbabas masuk gaung puas hati aku'. KAN?

the reason i blog is because i love writing and i love to express what i feel in my writing. kalau kau suka baca blog orang, i think u should learn how to see things from different angle cuz every blogger (who blogs for the purpose of expressing what they feel, not those who treat the blog as an online diary) see things differently. i do see things differently, at least different from u. sometimes my view is radical and not acceptable, but what the heck this is my blog and i dont wanna write things that don't come from me. i agree some people love to argue and debate over something because i do too, but babe, gotta do it in the right way. u'll look smarter if u debate about it without calling someone a mental bitch or things like that. but hey, u look stupider than anyone else when u start doing that. lol. that's why u choose to be an anonymous, because u already know u're stupid. haha. sorry babe.

it reminds me of a post about dye rambut tu haram from a friend of mine. nak kata sentap tu tak sgt la because itu stand dia and i know what i'm doing. but as someone yang dye rambut tentulah kau nak say something jugak gak, so i did but in a good way. buat apa nak jadi anonymous? jadi diri sendiri and tulis elok2 sudeyh. lepas tu suka hati dia la nak ckp apa asalkan kau tulis elok2. tak ke? heh. so, ada berani? aku takde hal kot kau nak counter aku balik, tp setakat jadi anonymous, semua orang pun boleh. haha.

if u're not stupid, confirm kau tersentap la ni. couldn't find any other reasons weh. haha. okay anonymous, i'm not letting u making me feel sorry for posting such a post. you can say whatever u want but i am no lalang so i'll just stick to what i feel.