me, lately.

i need to save as much money as i could for next year's big mission! i am going on a vacation with my best friendssss!! nothing is confirmed just yet but julie and ika are going to buy their flight tix very very soon so i'm assuming everything's gonna run smoothly! in the meantime, i'm hoping that nadd and fatin get their schedule asap so they too can buy the flight tix and join us! about muz, i wish she could just cancel or postpone her trip to phuket and join us. well, we'll see how it goes.

i'm all excited about this! helloooo vacation with best friends is something we've been dreaming since high school! and no we're not talking about vacation to pulau perhentian or tioman or singapore or the jiran tetangga. heee. but i shall announce the places to go once everything is confirmed :D






in the meantime, i'm coping well with LDR. but i gotta cut down a bit on sms and direct phone calls coz dat causes hole(s) in pockets. thanks to skype, we do video-calling almost every night so far hee. in LDR, all you need is effort to keep in touch and trust :) that will suffice the basics la kot. and they say distance makes the heart grows fonder, well well, it's so true in my caseee :)


and ramadhan is ending soon, my batchmates are going back to malaysia to celebrate aidilfitri pretty soon. i'll be here and i still can't believe myself. ira that i know won't wanna stay afar from family especially on festive season la. come on, i went back home EVERY single weekend when i was in KMS, i even went back home when all i got was outing till 6pm when i was in boarding school. and now i didn't even wanna try to go back home for raya? i must be nuts.

and i've been skipping lots of classes lately. especially my surgery posting. malas weyyy. malas satu hal, takde mood jugak. hari ni pun bangun tidur 2pm tu pun sebab lil dinosour msg kalau tak mmg takde semangat nak bangun tidur pun. hahaha. musim kemalasan dah datang la ni. mati la attendance ku. nanti mesti menggelupur nak kene catch up attendance. asal la kau suke men-adventurous-kan hidup kau iraaa!

so, that very much sum up everything bout me and my latest update. haha perlu ke? lol. suke hati la. not really in the mood to really write something. only in the mood to miss people that i love. hehehe.

akhir kata dari saya buat saya sendiri, mari berjimat cermat to the max jangan keluar 1 sen pun! yeayyy! last time masa determine gila kumpul duit, pergh hasilnya memberansangkan. kali ni pasti berjaye lagi! i dun mind takde baju raye kasut raye rambut raye janji aku kaye time vacation nnt ;p hahahah till then, daaa!

beginning of something new

Last nite was our last goodbye in India. In India eh, saya ulang. Nanti dekat Malaysia bertemu kembali hehehe. So anyway, I sent him off at the airport. Ada orang dah nak balik Malaysia for goooood :( leaving his girlfriend behind. Huaaa, but what to do, MARA kata balik, kene la balik, takkan nak buat drama nak stay ngan girlfriend pulak. Lagipunnn, sape nak stay kat India lelama? Gila ape?

Yang dia ni dok risau about his visa. Visa dia expired 16th Aug, but his flight is on 17th Aug, tapi awal pagi la, around 12.45am. Dia dah dok cuak nanti kena tahan kena masuk jail la apa la. Hahaha boleh tahan la gak kerisauan dia ;p kelakar pun ada. But alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly though memula his baggage and all kena tahan dekat check-in counter, tapi dia lepas immigration so okay lah. Lepas lah semua.



That's him and his excess kgs of baggage. Nasib baik la kau dapat extra 5kg daripada MAS Airline. Nasib baik jugak ada girlfriend tempat tolak barang2 yang agak2 cam memberatkan bag. Haha suka suka. I got his yoga mat, penyangkut baju, speaker best, albums, ikan bilis pun dapat okay. Orang bagi kita amek. Ikan bilis dapat la menampung stok I lagi 2 bulan kat India. Mekaseh sayang! Speaker best tu bole la I bawak2 gune tuk clubbing dalam bilik. Tapi cuti sat sebab bulan Ramadhan, tak elok melagha. Beliau juga menumpangkan beberapa barang beliau yang agak berat dekat I dengan harapan nanti I balik Malaysia I bawak balik barang2 dia hahaha. Pe lagi, 1 kg RM50 ok? ;p He has 1 tupperware of Malaysian coins, berat okay, ni dah selotape ketat2 punya, I pun malas nk bukak curik. Hehe. Ada jugak his marble mini Taj Mahal. Pun tak bukak lagi. Tengok lah if I rajin I godek2 la barang dia ;p

Now he's already in Malaysia. Haish. It's the beginning of my long distance relationship. Haih, 2 years jugak nak kena survive before I go back to Malaysia for good. Hopefully la both of us can make it. Hopefully 2-2 rajin nak contact each other, trust each other, tak buat pasal to each other and tak carik lain jugak. I can only hope for the best. But knowing him, I know he'll do his best to keep this relationship jugak! :D

Maka dengan itu, I dengan tidak sengaja telah terjumpa gambar I zaman KMS, wahahaha, gmbar ni pernah tampal dekat card library KMS (cop pusat sumber spotted) found it in my handbag (handbag I memang cam magic, macam2 ada) time tengah lepak2 berbuka with him. So I terus kasi dia letak dalam his wallet. Hehehe. This is it ;


Tengok ar muka girlfriend anda sampai lebam eh. Jangan mimpi nak cari lain ;p I dah jampi gambar tu! Hahaha. And, distance is nothing lah. We survived Manipal-Bangalore relationship, so we'll survive this one jugak! :)

Till then, daaaa!

somebody turns 23!

Little dinosour is turning 23 this Tuesday! And I'll be having Pathology Paper 1 on his special day :( Masa my birthday pun I had Pathology Paper 1 jugak, coincidence eh?

So, since I'll be busy studying on your birthday, and a day before your birthday (and of course, after the birthday too) I'm taking this opportunity to make an advance birthday wish for youuuu!!

Happy 23rd Birthday sayangggg! Sorry again I can't be there with you to celebrate your birthday on the day itself :( But, I'll make sure I'll be the first to wish you, ok?

We're already 23! wahahahahaha. Mok, I wanna grow old with you :) and to the best thing in the world, these are for you ;

a reason for me to smile :)

kamu.....ya kamu.....
tIRAi rancangan pagi hidupku
bIRAi turun tutup malamku
kau sIRAm hari hidupku pelangi
tiada lagi pusaran jingga tersIRAt kusut ribut kabus pudar gerhana sunyi
ukIRAn halus senyuman kamu tidak dpt terhindar dari pemikIRAn ini
myb kau mutiara tIRAm yang jatuh terhempas hebat dari angkasa cahaya
maybe.........
mereka kata kita seIRAs......hehe....ku tersenyum
ternyata kIRAanku.....kita ini telah termaktub kemas rapat tak kn ku bagi terpisah lagi....

creepy girlfriend and nerdy boyfriend

I spent 2 hours stalking this guy thru the webcam. ahahaha. miss you so much babyyy! Why so nerdy? ahahaha, tak laahhh, he's on study leave, kena la jadi nerd kannn?




I have more snapshots of him studying, lap hingus sebab flu, buat muka retarded sebab stress study and muka steam sebab ngantuk. But I need not upload all the pics, 5 pics already make me look like a creepy girlfriend. LOL. I hate this guy because he is so jauh lepas tu gatal nak jugak couple jauh2 lepas tu tinggal girlfriend sorang2 dekat sini. Sigh. Nasib baik kau kacak! LDR sucks :( hmmm. miss you baby!

And here's the creepy girlfriend who woke up at 1.30 pm, bunked O&G theory test (purposely, I'll make up to that later I swear!!), haven't took her bath during the webcam-ing session (sekarang pun) and was trying hard to focus on studying but Saturday is just too precious to be wasted on heavy stuffs (dushhh! tumbuk muka sendiri!!)

that guy i miss

do we look alike?

rindu

060907

let's pray for this to last :)

the guy who is 22 days younger than me is my bf.

encik manis, selamat hari jadi :)
23rd march 1987, tentulah saya takkan lupa hari jadi awak.
tapi saya dan awak sama2 ada class pada hari 23rd march, mintak maaf :(

yeay awak dah sama umur dengan saya, dah 22 tahun :)
jgn lupa pesan saya dlm birthday card yg saya bagi semalam
masa hantar awak dkt airport.

saya sayang awak, awak tau tak?
happy birthday again, sugar!

- girlfriend awak yg annoying -

sweet like chocolate

having your boyfriend as a personal photographer sure is sweet (yes nad?)

having your boyfriend to play the guitar and sing a love song to you is double sweeet!

having an artistic boyfriend who can actually draw a portrait of you is definitely a big big big bonus!

above all, having azar syazwan as my boyfriend is the sweetest thing ever :)

right guy, wrong city.

kenape perlu post gambar gedik kami berdua? hahahaha! simple, because i miss this guy a little too much! lately sgt jarang gayut and sharing is caring. no, it's not like what u think. we're cool. i love him still and he loves me too ira loves azar azar loves ira and i miss azar azar misses me too *aha okay stop sebelum kene lempang!* it's just that he's now on study leave and he needs to really concentrate on his studies, so that's why! rindu rindu rindu! sangat benci benci benci tgk couple-couple yg bertaburan di sekitar tempat belajar. sgt tak suke tak suke tak suke kalau teroverheard couple-couple tengah discuss weekend nanti nak pergi dating dekat mana. because i can't do the same thing. hm, rindu sama little dinosour!

(mood rindu malam ni agak melampau)

2 in the morning

i promise :)

day 1 : shopping in bangalore

life is great when the loved ones are here with me :D

day 1 : teman my family (particularly my mom) shopping for sarees and salwar kameez (punjabi suit) usually, my mom hanye bertahan 1 hour maximum utk shopping. she gets fatigue easily hahahah. but today, she managed to shop for the whole 4 hours, non-stop, really. she got really2 excited and amazed with the sarees. according to her, the sarees are all cheap(compared to those in malaysia) and extremely beautiful. and my mom berjaya membelanjakan quite a large sum of money just for sarees. bravo mummy! (no wonder i'm a shopaholic, kemana tumpahnye lauk kalau bukan ke nasi? :D)

together with us was of course, my adorable darling. i wanna say thanks to u my dearie dear, sbb teman me and my family jalan2. he helped a lot too. thanks sgt2. i know it was tiring, i hope u get a good rest tonite. i really2 appreciate it. my dad pon tak habis2 ckp u baik sgt (banggela tu ;p) and i'm glad that u got along so well with my family. i love u damn muchhhhh!

i guess the happiest person on earth today is my mom. after we got back to my apartment, sumerang terus pengsan sbb penat sgt. tak smpat tuka baju pon sume dh tido. but my mom is still awake(up until now), still admiring the sarees she just bought :D happy for her heheheheh and she bought quite a number of bangles too. she adores 'em a lot.

the plan for tomorrow is to go to MG road, but hopefully we'll be back home earlier because i haven't done packing my stuff for delhi trip yet. and sadly, my baby's leaving tomorrow nite :( :( :( hate to say goodbye. having u and my family around is like a perfect combo! loving it!

here are some recent pictures of me, my baby and my family.

while waiting for my family at the airport
bangalore airport!!

my mom is a shopaholic too, sbb tu abah botak ahaha

sisters at commercial street

sisters, brother and boyfriend.

geng baru :D they talked a lot about football. err?

gempak gile the camera makes me look fat, though i'm not.
love daddy!

happiest person on earth today, my mom
love mummy!!

perfect drug

i was having some sort of emotional breakdown lately. i get irritated and emotionally disturbed easily. yes, my heart is missing some pieces. the loved ones! the family, the besties and the sweetheart!

and i was lucky enough to have the whole weekend with my little dinosour :) he came all the way from manipal to bangalore! loving itttttttttttttt!!! and he is my drug. the drug that kiss away the emotional imbalance. :D perfect drug i would call.

babyku and babymu

my little dinosour is getting fatterrrrr! but i love him fat so i can pinch all his lemak2 :D and ohhh, he won't stop showing off his biceps and triceps hahahah *bangga laa tu!*

my little dinosour loves to eat :D

and his appetite is beyond everything else. kuat mkn nihhh!

my little dinosour is so comel lahhh!

it's been 2 months since we last met. well, we are supposed to meet on february '09 but jgn harap lahhh cuz i misss him damn muchhhh and he misses me tooo so he came over hehe and after my trip to new delhi in december i'll be going to manipal for the whole 1 week :D i'll be his cook for the whole 1 week to make sure that he is well nourished! hahahah

messy messy him

can't u tell? i love it when he's around. thanks little dinosour for coming. i know the bus ride suck big time but u came anyway. thanks a lot babykuuuu! i love u so so so muchhh! and having you around is the best damn thing :) because you complete me.

and lucky lucky me

distance can be so cruel.

okay, i hate dis! i hate dis! i really hate dis!!!why do i have to stay afar from him?i miss him sgt! and when i need him the most, he can't be there. it's not that he doesn't wanna be there for me, but it's the distance. okay fine, it's not like we're separated by two different continents, yeah we both are in india, in fact we're in the same state, but he's 14 hours drive away from me. fine, i know there are more and more less fortunate couples, maybe sorang in the north pole, sorang lagi kat south pole, but i don't care, i just can't take it. i'm not used to it. :(

i really wanna see u la baby...when u're around, everything is like soooo wonderful. u're the reason i believe in myself again. u know kan, i was about to lose hope, lose faith, and then u came, so why can't u just stay near me? :(

having u around is fun!

i know i'm making such a big fuss over the distance. mcm la jauh gile kan. but who cares. my blog, suke hati i la nk tulis ape kan. anyways, i miss everything we did together. like masak together like the other day. blaja with u and make sure u tak tido time blaja. pegi beach, u know how much i love the beach! i miss ur companion when i go shopping. naik motor with u around manipal, hahahah damn it i sound like minah rempit but btw, we're in india kan, naik motor la is the most practical n flexible kan? considering the road yg mcm jalan tanah merah, especially in manipal! the never ending conversation! and what i miss the most is, our silent moment just staring at each other. hahahah yeah, i can sit silent with you, doing nothing, and i still feel whole. that's a clear sign that i'm sooo in love with u kot? yes? no?

my little dinosour

i know i can be really difficult at times. nak tu, nak ni, and nk mcm2 lagi. yeah, i admit that. but thanks syg, despite my gedikness and mengadeness, u're still there. knowing you, i know you too are alone in manipal. yelah, ur housemate pon ade gf kat sane. the rest pon are busy with their loved ones. if u're just some random guys, am sure u dh cari girl lain kat manipal tu to accompany u, but u're different. that's why i love u!

my artpiece

skarang ni baru nk masuk november. the earliest we can meet again will be on february. yeah, i can't afford to go there and kacau u study. and u too, u can't come over because u're packed with all the exams and tests kan. haih, till then, i'll be missing u like crazy je la :( why oh why...

likewise, he misses me too!

tapi like u said, our time will come. okay, i take ur words. i'll wait okay! but jgn naughty2 kat sane k dear. takleh usha2 girl lain. hahaahhaha. k la, i just miss u damn much. nak call tkde credit. nak msg plak nnti kacau u tgh study right now *td dh janji tanak kacau* and that's why i end up writing this. dearie dear, i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u. ok, i'll be waiting for my wake up call tomorrow morning. i won't wake up will u call me. so please, u know what to do ;p okay!

just you and me

this picture and another picture of him standing by the beach was edited by him. thanks love. love it love it! okay la, this post is too lengthy plak. gotta catch my beauty sleep! last words, i love my azar syazwan sgt!

scream my name!

in case u dunno, dat's my baby. yes, he screamed my name! *segan gile!!* told u, he's unpredictable and full of surprises. hahaha. credits to sophia, she was the one who recorded the historical event!LOL.

thanks to u baby, everyone knows about us now. even kakak MARA tu pon tau about me n u! all the teachers, the parents, UR PARENTS, gosshhh...i can't believe u did dat!i didnt know what to say and what to do, i blushed so much i guess!

love u syg! i miss u badly! i wish u can move to shah alam immediately so i can meet u everyday...

BLESSED TO HAVE AZAR SYAZWAN :)

one of the best thing about my boyfriend is that he's good, really good at making surprises for me :) and yesterday, he came out with another big surprise for me.

he picked me up at my house. uh oh, have i told u that he is now my mom's best buddy? my mom seems to like him sooooo much. in fact, he brought along some kuih raya for my family.soooo nice of u syg! he even asked for my mom's permission to take me out (no one ever did that before!)

he took me to Revolving Restaurant, Federal Hotel. he said that the dinner is meant for our 1st year anniversary celebration. how sweeeet :D and he even get us an anniversary cake from Haagen-Dazs. i love it!!!

thanks darl for the cake :)

We had western cuisine for our dinner treat. the food was scrumptious! a candlelight dinner, scrumptious food, and my baby, i couldn't ask for more! :D it was indeed a perfect night out for me.

my cutie pie

happy me :D

love u more n more! mwahhh~

he's trying his best to be me! - note his pouty lips!

it was 10 pm when we walked out from the Revolving Restaurant. he drove me home safe and sound. upon reaching Shah Alam, we stopped a little while and he suddenly hand over a huge M.A.C paper bag to me. he said, those are for me, for our anniv. i went speechless for a moment! there was a card inside the paper bag. i read the card with him by my side, i was sooooo touched with the content! i swear to God i really was! i dun even know how to say thanks, a hundred thanks won't do. he got me a cute soft toy. we name it Encik Bintang. he said, if u miss me, u can cubit Encik Bintang all u want. hehehe am doing it right now.

u know me best syg, love it!

Encik Bintang, my companion when he's away.

what touches me the most, the card that he gave to me :)

words fail me sometimes. i wish i can describe my feelings perfectly but nope, my happiness is more than this. almost indescribable. to azar syazwan, don't stop loving me :) i need that all the time! 1 year has passed by, let's build more memories together! i'm blessed to have you in my life~ :) loveee ya!mwaahhh xoxo!

as long as forever, i love u syg~!