BLESSED TO HAVE AZAR SYAZWAN :)

one of the best thing about my boyfriend is that he's good, really good at making surprises for me :) and yesterday, he came out with another big surprise for me.

he picked me up at my house. uh oh, have i told u that he is now my mom's best buddy? my mom seems to like him sooooo much. in fact, he brought along some kuih raya for my family.soooo nice of u syg! he even asked for my mom's permission to take me out (no one ever did that before!)

he took me to Revolving Restaurant, Federal Hotel. he said that the dinner is meant for our 1st year anniversary celebration. how sweeeet :D and he even get us an anniversary cake from Haagen-Dazs. i love it!!!

thanks darl for the cake :)

We had western cuisine for our dinner treat. the food was scrumptious! a candlelight dinner, scrumptious food, and my baby, i couldn't ask for more! :D it was indeed a perfect night out for me.

my cutie pie

happy me :D

love u more n more! mwahhh~

he's trying his best to be me! - note his pouty lips!

it was 10 pm when we walked out from the Revolving Restaurant. he drove me home safe and sound. upon reaching Shah Alam, we stopped a little while and he suddenly hand over a huge M.A.C paper bag to me. he said, those are for me, for our anniv. i went speechless for a moment! there was a card inside the paper bag. i read the card with him by my side, i was sooooo touched with the content! i swear to God i really was! i dun even know how to say thanks, a hundred thanks won't do. he got me a cute soft toy. we name it Encik Bintang. he said, if u miss me, u can cubit Encik Bintang all u want. hehehe am doing it right now.

u know me best syg, love it!

Encik Bintang, my companion when he's away.

what touches me the most, the card that he gave to me :)

words fail me sometimes. i wish i can describe my feelings perfectly but nope, my happiness is more than this. almost indescribable. to azar syazwan, don't stop loving me :) i need that all the time! 1 year has passed by, let's build more memories together! i'm blessed to have you in my life~ :) loveee ya!mwaahhh xoxo!

as long as forever, i love u syg~!

of nasi tomato and mee ruski

all of us are on our own track now. no more staying under one roof like how we did in high school. we can't afford to do crazy things on daily basis anymore. i miss those days badly. i missed a lot of fun when i wasn't in malaysia. so here we are, sleepover with lots n lots of junkfoods can never go wrong with these girls. let's start off with the shopping spree in Tesco, Shah Alam.

we've grown up so much that we can now cook our own food!menu of the day is nasi tomato and ayam masak merah. it was superb! i hope Julie can now cook various lauk (previously she only know how to cook ayam masak kicap ;p )






muz can't make it for berbuka. so there were just 5 of us ; me, nad, julie, farah and jay. not to be forgotten, those who are miles away ; ain, zayani, ika and fatin. too bad they can't join us for berbuka. but they are dearly missed! mwahhh! after berbuka, we went to sent Julie off, she can't stay back for the sleepover cuz she had something to attend the next day. Jay too had to go, she had an exam the next day.

we spent the nite talking and munching. we talked about everything. every tiny little things. yes, we shared everything :D my tummy was about to burst but i managed to stuffed myself with lots n lots of junkies and mee ruski for sahur.

4 am in the morning. hot yummy sizzling mee ruski directly from periuk, prepared by Farah - that's what we had for sahur. call us pathetic, but we had fun stuffing ourselves with mee ruski direcly from the periuk.

we slept with happy tummy. too happy that we slept till 12 noon. yep, all of us. uh oh, except nad because i took over the space hahahaa. and finally, we all had to go home. too little time, yet we had so much fun. love u girls xoxo!

i'm so gonna miss my long hair! :(

being me, i rarely have short hair. but i really need a haircut today!so here's the last picture of me and my long hair!



i wanted a shoulder-length,layered haircut, but this is not exactly the length that i want :( this is shorter than what i've expected. i want my hair back! at least for hari raya! waaaaaaaaaa...i present u...my short hair :(

love is blind?

who says love is blind? if love really is blind, why do most people go after people with good looks?and if love isn't blind, why do some girls date some jerks?

to decide whether or not that love is blind is really a tough one. i can't decide either. but, what leads to love? i personally think that physical appearance is the next important thing other than good attitude with good family background. those things lead to love. i agree.

a certain someone told me that in a relationship, we'll keep on learning new things about our partner. even after marriage, u might encounter some new facts about ur spouse. (okay i dun write dis based on experience, just based on what dat particular person told me) and when love develops before u know the worst ever fact about the one that u love, can ur love fades away after knowing the true colors of ur loved one?tough one! i know.

we tend to love a person, before we actually know the person. i mean, yes we know his name, his birthday etc..but some other things?like his bad attitude?maybe he's hot-tempered?it sucks to know that our loved one has some flaws that we cant actually accept.

i've encountered dis for quite a number of times. hate to deal with it. should i try to accept it as how it is, should i try to adapt, or should i try to change things? if i keep quiet, that means my love is blind. if i try to change things, ppl might accused me for not accepting the one i love for who he is. so tell me, should i go on keeping my mouth shut and support that love really is blind, or should it be the other way round?

we've reached our 1st year baby :)

6th September 2007 is a date to remember,
The day when I am yours forever,
Hopefully you will leave me never,
Cuz I wanna keep you close to me forever...

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY BABY!

when 2 worlds collide~

Do u still remember how things started? It was somewhere around May 2007…when I was at my lowest point…

Mohd Azar Syazwan. I’ve known this guy since 2005, when we both were doing International Baccalaureate programme in KMS. He’s a guy who owns his own world, never really talk to girls, loves basketball so much, messy, very very very quiet and cute! I used to think he’s really cute and mysterious. Hahaha. Yes, I still think about the same thing. (indirect way of saying I was eyeing on him, a bit, when we were im KMS, hahaha)

That’s a picture of him with his happy tummy. I swear to God I never ever talked to him in KMS. Not even a word. And I believe, he’s the only IB guy I’ve never talked to in KMS. It’s funny how I finally hooked up with him.

IB is over and we still never talked to each other till one day. He added me at Yahoo Messenger and yeah, we started a conversation through this YM thingy and everything went fine and casual. He’s like a God-sent angel to me because he came when I was going through the darkest time of my life, when I was at my lowest point. Some might say I broke up with my ex because of him, the real fact is, it was nothing like that. He just happened to be there when I needed someone.

I still remember the time I was warded for some minor surgery, he came all the way from Seremban to Shah Alam to accompany me. Yes, that was the first time we talked to each other face to face. He brought along his little diary and wrote his entry that very night when I was taking a rest in that hospital room. Isn’t it weird? A guy with a diary, to me, he’s really one of a kind. And I can’t help having some strange feelings slipping through my heart. Maybe I liked him, maybe not, maybe it was too fast.

We were close friends until September 2007, we were officially an item. My life is brighter than ever before. He showered me with lots and lots of love. And he is no longer Mr. Quiet, at least not when he’s with me. He brought back the smile on my face and he brought back the joy to me.

We're close to our 1st year anniversary. Thank you baby. For all the love u gave to me, they are to be cherished now and forever. I love you more than ever before and I can’t afford to lose a guy as nice as you. Don’t walk away, don’t let the love between us fades, and don’t let anyone else tell it’s over between you and me. We have many more years to go, and I hope you will remain strong and will not succumb to the distance that comes between us. I love you, and I will always do.

Love,

Ira

yes,i am indeed very COOOL!

i'm hurt.i really am.

and this isn't the first time,and i keep on hurting.why,why and why some people have no clue at all that they're hurting someone they love the most?and here i am,acting cool,as if nothing had happened, as if everything is fine.

"u tak reti nk express what u feel to others". dat's what he told me.yeah,so true. i dunno how to tell a person dat i'm mad at him, or sad for what he had done. i'm a big failure when it comes to this. and so, all the things that make me feel uneasy pile up in this very fragile heart of mine, and yes, i bear 'em all alone. (okay,no really alone,cuz i usually share 'em with my besties)

stop hurting the one u love the most cuz when it reaches the limit, babe there's no turning back.i once thought i could bear everything that hurts me, alone, and never walk away from the one who hurts me, but i was really wrong.it finally reached a point where i can't simply take it anymore. and so, i can no longer act cool and though it hurts me to death, i just have to walk away.that's what happening in the past and i dun wish to walk through the same old track.

it's 2.26 am in the morning and i keep on thinking about this. let's do this right. let's not hurt each other anymore. i dun wanna fail this time. i really don't....