sorry for the delay!

riena, i tak menyepi la hehehe sorry i know u dh tagged i lame dah tp baru nk buat nih. u tagged me 3 times and i'm thinking of doing all 3 tp since 1 tag tu kene upload pics byk2, i buat tu nanti eh cuz now cam tak sempat. hehehe :D

TAG 1

7 Ciri Lelaki Idaman Saya
- handsome comel good looking hot cute macho dan yg sewaktu dengannya.
- sweet and hopeless romantic hahahah okay sile gelak.
- athletic and tak malas bersukan mcm saye
- smart intelligent dan yang sewaktu dengannya
- ade pegangan agama yg kuat (at least kuat dari saye la heeee)
- someone who can make me laugh out loud and listen to my silly stories and never underestimate me
- sabar loyal and believe in me

7 Lelaki yang pernah saya minati
omg perluke jawab? hahahahah soalan ni cacat ok.
- azar syazwan
- azar syazwan
- azar syazwan
- azar syazwan
- azar syazwan
- azar syazwan
- chuck bass in gossip girl. (awak jgn jealous ye!)

7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan orang yang diminati
- tak lalu makan n rasa kenyang sentiasa sbb over excited kot?
- usually akan set alarm awal2 untuk bgn awal and bersiap awal gile smpai make up cair seblum kluar rumah. ok sile gelak.
- rase nak senyum sampai esok pagi sbb happy
- heart rate pasti naik sebab excited
- sesi mencuba2 baju akan berlangsung dengan galaknya
- no idea
- no idea

7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama orang yang tersayang
- bora bora island and any beaches. i have this great admiration towards beaches. bukak lagu island in the sun lepas tu bole slow dance. sgt sukaaa! - honeymoon part 1
- italy - honeymoon part 2
- dinner on a cruise :D
- kampung yang bebetul kampung. ade sawah dusun sungai dan yg sewaktu dengannye. i never really had a real kampung and i've no experience living in kampung. mcm seronok je just lepak2 dekat kampung. yes i wanna go there with my special one.
- tree house. been wanting this since i was a little kid. comel kan ade rumah atas pokok utk lepak2. mahuuu!
- no idea. i wanna go anywhere and everywhere with my loved one.

7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin dihadiahkan buat orang tersayang kalau saye kaye raye, saye bagi je semua yg die nak. stakat ni tak mampu yg grand2 so rasenye malas nk list down.

7 Lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk orang tersayang
- hey there delilah by plain white t's (lagu ni sgt sesuai ok)
- baby love by nicole ape tah name dia
- u make me wanna by blue
- for u i will by teddy geiger
- i wanna be with u by mandy moore
- with you by jess simpson
- with you by chris brown

TAG 2

1. Take a recent CUTE photo of yourself.
2. Don't change anything, edit or whatever.
3. Post that photo.
4. Post this instructions with the photo.
5. Tag 10 people to do this.

this picture is taken around 2-3 weeks back. but this is the latest pic of me, apart from pics of me and my family in delhi and taj mahal(which i've already posted) i was wearing my boyfriend's basketball jersey :) and yeay, as u can see, that's my name and 69 means 6th september :D

so i'm going to tag :-
- acap
- lutfi
- sho
- hafiz akagi
- mighty jacksparrow

(saje tag the boys hahaha padan muke korang! sila buat! and jgn la plak list lelaki idaman korang k..nak buat aksi gay sile kaver2..tuka la lelaki jadi pompuan kot ;p selamat maju jaya!)

my perfume and my study

femme by hugo boss. my dearie got me this some time last year and i've been using this perfume ever since. and now this perfume of mine is about to finish. i was thinking of getting myself a new bottle of this. but not until i found out that hugo boss is another israeli product. *damn* i am definitely not gonna buy this. that's the least that i can do to help isn't it? i'm not gonna die if i don't buy this perfume for myself, but if i buy this perfume, that means i'm helping the israelis to kill the muslim population in palestine. i'm not that mean. i'm not sure if we help much by not buying the israeli products, but we're not in the position to give a big help either. well sometimes, little things that we do means a lot to someone else. we'll never know and there's no harm in doing so anyway. so why not?

oh btw, i have a date with myself tomorrow. yeay shopping date! the top list is surely to find a brand new perfume! errr, i know, i got class tomorrow(hello, tomorrow is monday for god's sake!) should be concentrating more on study, not anything unnecessary. but i can't help being myself. honestly, it's been 4 months since i entered my 2nd year of MBBS but seriously serious, i don't know what i've actually learnt for the past 4 months. scary isn't it? but what's scarier is that i'm not scared at all. get what i mean? hahah forget it if u don't. if you ask me anything about pharmacology or microbiology, i'll give u craps. i'm all interested in forensic medicine and clinical subjects. pharmacology and microbiology can kiss my ass! who wants to deal with drugs and minute organisms?! i don't want. well, sape suruh kau amek medic kalau tanak blaja pharmaco and microb, baik kau pegi menternak kambing. yes, please tell me that, i deserve that. hahahah.

and last week, i had a class on pathology study case. i did not study at all. not even a line in pathology book that i've read before attending the class. and yeay, i managed to make myself look like a total fool when my lecturer asked me questions. twice. yeay people, twice. but today, i'm still me. no progress in my study at all. erk.

fine, nak bukak buku la ni. *blueeekkkk!!*

cinta hati

whatever la mangkok

dingin
malam ini dingin
sedingin hatiku sayu
makin layu

ucapmu itu
aku terhiris
aku lagi terguris
tak tertahan ku merintih menangis

ku tahu kau tahu
mekar kasihku masih untukmu
rinduku tiada pernah tercemar
kau rasa dalam samar

doamu terkirim buatku
bahagiaku ukir senyuman dibibirmu
lalu kau terbang hilang
aku terkaku tak terhalang

aku sakit
hati tertusuk
jiwa tercarik
aku merintih

pergimu abadi
namun kau kunanti
1000 tahun aku tak peduli
kau tetap di hati.

the most powerful weapon

serious boleh nangis tengok semua video2 ni.
bole search some more in youtube.
we can't do much at the moment.
tapi kalau dpt doa untuk diorang pun dah cukup bagus.
sebab doa is the most powerful weapon.
jom.

happy birthday nadia ismail.

ini kawan baik saya! nama dia nadia ismail. panggil saja dia nad. kami ditakdirkan bertemu pada tahun 2003 di sekolah menengah sains seri puteri. kami ditempatkan di kelas yang sama iaitu 4 cattleya (cattleya tu sejenis orkid)

di awal perkenalan kami, saya hanya kenal dia sebagai salah seorang budak sekelas saya saja. tak lebih dari itu. masa tu saya tak pula teringin nak tegur dia and berkawan baik dengan dia sebab dia sangatlah selekeh lagi selebet pakai tudung pun senget benget. selain dari itu, dia juga mempunyai suara yang sangat annoying, yang macam suara doraemon tu. ha, annoying kan? dia juga seorang yang teramatlah pandai dan selalu jadi top student. maka dengan itu, seganlah saya nak berkawan dengan orang yang pandai lagi selekeh macam nadia ismail ni.

kalau diminta recall bila the exact time saya mula rapat dengan nad, i seriously can't recall. tapi selepas kelas2 tingkatan 4 were reshuffled, saya dan nad duduk next to each other. mungkin dari situ kot kami mula rapat. mungkinlah. any idea nad? bila dah rapat, barulah saya tau the real nad. seorang yang fun, gila-gila, sangat carefree dan juga agak spoilt. saya masih ingat nad pernah menangis macam orang gila sebab kami kena mop dorm. cacat kan? walaupun begitu, dia sangat mementingkan pelajaran dan kami pernah berjanji untuk terjun bangunan kalau tak dapat 10A1 dalam SPM. almost everyday kami berjanji begitu dengan muka yang serius lagi bersungguh-sungguh. ingat tak nad? tapi bila result SPM keluar, masing2 pun lupa janji kita dulu2 tu. ni semua salah EST kan nad? ok itu valid untuk nad sahaja.

masa tingkatan 5, kami memang rapat gila. masa tingkatan 5 juga, kami berdua sangat dibenci oleh reban(nama lain bagi warden2 kami) oh kalau nak cerita tentang kisah unggul reban dan kami, it will be another long story. tapi banyak perkara yang kami tempuhi bersama2. to make it short, saya sangat bersyukur lagi beruntung mempunyai kawan seselebet dan secaring nad. time di sekolah dulu, bila saja saya down tertonggeng tak kesah la pasal pelajaran atau perangai reban yang annoying, dia mesti ada untuk menceriakan hari2 saya di sekolah. terima kasih nad!

and pada hari ini, iaitu 13 january 2009, nad akan menyambut hari jadinya yang ke-22, walaupun dia sebenarnya dilahirkan tidak cukup bulan. kan nad? happy birthday nad! walaupun kau jauh di mata, tapi kau tetap dekat di hati! :D bagus juga kita berjauhan, tak perlu lah aku carikan birthday present untuk kau hahahahahaa. love u bitch! and happy 22nd birthday once again! omg 22 is a big number! damn, we're growing too fast kotttt? hope u have a blast on ur buftday!

intelligent brain or sensitive heart?

i'm not really in the mood of writing lately. i find myself becoming a little too complicated at times. and that's because my heart and my brain doesn't sync well. totally out of sync. no harmony at all. my heart wants something the brain doesn't approve and the brain tells me to do things that my heart refuses to. complicated isn't it?

i believe this thing happens all the time. and apparently, the one that suffers is me. i hate decision making when it comes to this complicated junction. which one should i trust more? and sometimes, i do prefer a dead end rather than guessing which route is better taken. and most of the time, either route will still cause a little, if not much, harm to my heart. and i bloody hate it.

after almost 22 years of living on this earth, i've encountered much of this complicated junctions in life before. and being me, i usually succumb to my emotional needs. but i did a few times, followed mr. brain. and i personally think that the brain is more reliable than the heart when it comes to decision making. but ironically, though the brain is more reliable, it does however, causes emotional abuse to oneself when decision is made by the brain, especially when the heart doesn't agree with mr. brain.

this confusion is endless. it gets tougher when the heart exerts a really strong feeling and the brain is so precise that it analyzes every single details.

oh dear brain, oh dear heart,
don't you wanna be bestfriends?